It's a new year. And all I can is, I really hope this year is better. I went through hell last year. I was hardly ever in the right headspace. The self harm became more of a common occurrence. Suicidal thoughts as well. I had to fight to stay alive. Everyone has these goals... Mine? To make it through this year and actually be happy. Is that possible? Like to actually not want to give up? I hope it is. But what is hope? What is the meaning of living? I don't know these answers. But life is shaping up. I know its hard. So very hard. But I'm going to let go of the past and try my best focus on what matters and keep my head up no matter how hard it is. So, goodbye to my old self. I'm starting again in this new year
