I have this constant feeling of anxiety because I'm scared. I spend every day wondering how long I'll be able to talk. Someone wants me? Anxiety, over nothing besides the fear that someone may know something. I can't lose you again. I can't go through the hell I went through. Not again. I don't want to hurt you more than I already did. I just can't. I'm tired of this anxiety. I'm tired of being scared shitless. I just, I love you too much to hurt you again. Some part of me wants to push you away. The other just says, "it's fine, we'll be alright." But that's what I said the last time... Nothing was alright... I'm scared and don't wanna lose you...
