I want you to hate me for leaving. I want you to hate me for not saying goodbye. I want you to hate me for not listening to myself. I want you to hate me for not being there. I want you to hate me for not being there for you. I want you to hate me for giving into my demons. I want you to hate me for being gone. I want you to hate me for everything I didn't do for you. I want you to hate me for everything. I want you to hate me for coming back. I want you to hate me for sending you messages while I was gone. I want you to hate me most of all for being myself. Why did you have to welcome me back with open arms? Why can't you just hate me like I hate myself?...
