Unconditionally In Love With Styles

Black Out

It's been 3 weeks since I've spoken to Harry. They go back to London tomorrow. I still haven't told him what happened. I have to or I'll regret it. I dialled his number.

“Hello?”

“Hey, it's Jaz”

“Oh, um.. hey. How are you?”

“I'm um.. look I need to tell you something.”

“Hey, whats wrong?”

“Listen when I rushed off that night after I got eliminated, I went out and got drunk”

“Oh really? Jaz, you know thats highly illegal.”

“Yeah and so is me cheating on you.”

“What?”

“You heard me. I didn't mean for it to happen. I was totally out of it and I-”

“No Jaz, stop. I felt terrible for putting your place on X Factor in jeopardy. And I haven't heard from you for the past 3 weeks. I was worried sick. And now you tell me you cheated on me? Please, tell me this is a joke.”

“It's not. I'm really sorry. You have no idea how horrible I feel. I regret it so much and always will.”

“Jaz, stop. Save your breath and tell it to someone who cares.” he said and then all I heard was the dead line. He hung up. I'm not surprised. I would too. I'm such a bitch.

I walked out of my house for some fresh air. I needed to calm down. I wanted to just die. This is a horrible feeling. I hated myself for doing this to Harry. I did something terrible and now I've lost the only person I care about. I sat on the beach and got out my phone. I deactivated my Twitter and Facebook accounts and put it away.

I felt like there was only one way to fix this. One way to let go and be free of this drama. I didn't want to do this, but it was my only choice. As it was getting dark I noticed the boys hotel across the road and remembered that they have a roof level. Perfect. I got up and walked across the road and into the hotel. Because Id been there before, they let me through and I took the elevator up.

I got onto the roof and sat on the edge. Tears started to fall from my eyes. Suddenly the song Fix A Heart by Demi Lovato popped into my head. I started singing it, out loud. I didn't care who could hear me. There wouldn't be a me for much longer. I unlocked my iPhone and took the passcode off it, then wrote a note to who ever found my phone.

To whoever is reading this,

By the time you read this it will be to late. I want you to know that my reason for jumping is a good one. I said myself to that person that I would never cheat on him and wouldn't be able to live with myself, so I'm keeping that promise and not living. I'm ending this drama that my life has become in the last hour. I hate hurting all my friends and not saying good bye, but I can't live with this.

I will always love him and consider me a guardian angel to those involved.

Goodbye

Love Jazmine Harper xxx

I locked my phone and stood up. I was looking at the ground beneath me when the door flew open I looked up to see Zayn and Liam run out.

“Jaz, don't you dare jump!” Liam screamed.

“Liam, don't. I'm disgusted in what I did to Harry, I don't deserve to live.” I said.

“You do. You can't do this to Harry. Jumping will make more drama for him.” Zayn said

“Seriously, how did you even know I was here?” I asked

“We saw you when we were walking up here. We ran up here to stop you.” Liam said grabbing my arm

“Please. Stop acting like you give a damn about me. I'm a slut. I'm a potato and Harry knows this. Just let me go.” I said

“No. You stay until you talk to Harry.” Zayn said and I nodded. We walked towards the door when I broke free of Liams arms and ran to the edge. At the last minute Harry appeared, but it was too late.

“JAZ NO!” He yelled.

“Someone, break her fall!!!” Liam and Zayn yelled. I looked at Harry and blew him a kiss. The tears began to fall. Goodbye world. Goodbye problems. Goodbye girls. I'll miss you all. Especially Harry and the boys. I waited for the ground to come. Just then, everything went black. The end was here.