Demons and darkness (Sunstreaker)

Chapter 14. It was only a suggestion...

'Haven't you slept?'

Sunstreaker looked up from his position on the couch. 'Uhm, no...' I frowned and sat down beside my brother. 'Why not?' I asked. Sunny shrugged. 'Sunshine, you need to recharge. It's not good for your systems and I know you can use some recharge,' I said. He didn't respond. To get his attention, I snitched his phone out of his hands. 'I am talking to you.' He rolled his eyes. 'Get some recharge,' I ordered. 'You don't tell me what to do!' He screamed. I bolted from the sudden eruption. He had never acted this upset before. 'I am just trying to help—' he hit me and shove me on the floor before storming upstairs and slammed the door shut.

'You're okay?' I gave a small nod, shaken up from what just happened. 'Does he react more like that?' I asked as I sat on the couch. Heather sighed, 'no, at least, not towards me but he does freak out sometimes over small and silly things. He's a little bit tensed lately,' she replied. 'Jeez,' I grunted and rubbed my face. We both flinched as we heard Sunstreaker scream in fury. 'I only told him to get some sleep... nothing special or new,' I sulked. 'Oh, he hates sleeping. He barely get any sleep. He's scared to lose control and doesn't feel safe. He's been hurt in his sleep at the mental health institution. They retrained him... also at the base and Ratchet would force him to sleep. Along with the nightmares...' she trailed off.

'I hadn't realized how bad the situation actually is. Can you have a chat with him? Maybe he'll calm down,' I said. Heather nodded and rubbed my back before heading upstairs. Hopefully she can calm him down a little bit. I am not gonna try, scared to upset him even more.

((Heather's P.O.V))

'Hey, easy warrior.'

I grasped Sunny's stone cold hands. He snorted and yanked his hands bed. 'People do not tell me what to do!' He spat and pushed me against the wall. 'It was a kind suggestion, not a must. Sideswipe is worried and he doesn't know what happened to you. Maybe you should talk to him and explain—' he cut me off and kicked against the wall in fury. He obviously hadn't taken his medication, which caused this anger eruptions. I really started to believe he needed them to stay calm and keep himself under control but on the other hand, I didn't want him to use them.

I decided to leave him alone. Maybe he'll calm down on himself. I can't talk to him, he doesn't listen. Sideswipe looked up as I walked into the room. 'I can't talk to him. He's completely off this world,' I sighed. 'Do you think we should give him the mood stabilizers?' He suddenly asked. I sighed and bit my lip. 'Honestly, I don't know.' I threw my arms up in the air. 'Let's see if he calms down and how it goes today. If he doesn't change, we might should give it to him. We mix it with his soda,' Sideswipe said eventually.

'He will know. He feels it and makes him feel numb and weak. He's not stupid, Sideswipe. He knows perfectly fine what is going on. Last thing we want is making him feel we turned our backs on him as well,' I said. 'So, we should be walking on eggshells and please him?' He mocked, getting up. 'No, but we can try to approach it from a different angle.' Sideswipe snorted, 'how exactly? Sunstreaker's mental health only got worse over the years. As much as I love my brother, he can't be healed from this, he can only learn to live with it. If the medicines means he doesn't have these... eruptions, than why not?' He asked.

Sideswipe only wanted his twin back and it's hard for him to see Sunny like this. 'I know, but forcing him will make things worse and lose his faith even more. We should try to motivate him,' I said. 'How exactly, isn't that what I just tried?' He asked grimly. I bit my lip. 'That's what I mean by walking on eggshells,' he sulked before walking off.

Sunstreaker didn't calm down. He was in a rage only because Sideswipe suggested him to go to sleep. We both listened to Sunstreaker's rage upstairs while having lunch. 'He's been like for three hours...' Sideswipe said after a while. 'Yeah...' We looked at each other. 'Shall we try to talk to him?' I asked. 'Of it works,' Sideswipe muttered. We got up and headed upstairs. Sunny was furiously pacing around. His fists were bleeding from punching the wall.

'Sunstreaker, enough.' Sideswipe blocked his way. 'You need to stop,' he stated firmly. Sunstreaker lunged for him and reacted all his anger, hate, sadness and grief on him. I couldn't do anything to help. I didn't want Sunstreaker to use me as a punchbag but I felt bad for Sideswipe as well. Just got here and not even one week later, he gets beaten up by his own, unstable, twin brother.

I watched the wrestling between the two until Sunstreaker was pinned down underneath his brother. Sideswipe held his head painfully hard against the ground and Sunstreaker wasn't able to move anymore. 'Calm down, for Primus sake,' Sideswipe spat. Sunstreaker got really upset by the entire situation. He didn't want to pinned down like this. 'Let him go, Sideswipe. You're hurting him.' Sideswipe slowly let go before getting. 'You're just like everyone else!' Sunstreaker shouted. 'You started beating me up,' Sideswipe shouted back. 'Because you don't tell me what to do!'

A tensed silence fell. Both glaring daggers at each other. 'Sunny, he's only trying to help,' I said. He snorted and turned his head away. Sideswipe waved his hand and walked off, slamming the door shut. 'Hey...' I rested my hand on his shoulder. 'He must hate me,' he muttered. 'He doesn't. Sideswipe loves you and you know it. He's your twin brother. Just— don't treat him like the other mechs, okay? Sideswipe wants to help you, that's all.' Sunstreaker turned around. 'If you say so.' He waved me off and sat down in the window sill, staring at something I couldn't see.