Anica's Love

AL #6

Anica Grace

I sighed.

Ang bigat ng pakiramdam ko, is this a sign of aging?

But f-uck it! I'm still young! I'm still 17 turning 18!

"Hoy A.G, bangon na, dika prinsisita dito"

I looked at ate.

I sighed for the nth time.

"Why does everything hurt?"

I asked.

She looked at me, probably thinking I'm referring to my still broken heart.

"AG, akala ko ba naka move on ka na? Stop it already"
She rolled her eyes at humalukipkip.

I tried to stand but then I felt so heavy. My body's heavy and it's hard to breathe.

When I looked at ate, her face got nervousness evident in her face. Then all turned black and the next thing I knew, ate screamed my name.

"What happened?"
It's Kitty's voice

"I don't know, according to her ate, she fainted right after she woke up and stood up, the doctors are still  checking on her, I don't know Kitty but I got scared"
Sabi ni Saint.

If I am not pretending I wasn't asleep then I'll literally sigh.

"You really love her don't you? "
Bahagya akong natigilan sa usapan ng mag pinsan na ito.

"Yes Kitty, I do. Who wouldn't? She's so adorable as f-uck and I don't know how did I have this feelings for her"

"Saint, you know how  committed she is to her  ex, don't try to force, you'll get hurt"

"You know me too well Kitty, I always try and try until I get it. I think it's worth the try if I try winning her heart this time. When you love someone, you should at least try. Don't tell me you haven't tried sacrificing for Brandon cause we both know you loved him"

Mag sasalita pa sana si Kitty pero may kung sinong dumating.

Buti nalang.

Feeling ko kasi pag papawisan na ako pag itinuloy pa nila ang usapan nila. Baka mahalata pa nila ako.

"I'mma go pee"
I said nang matapos akong kumain.

Nagka tinginan naman silang lahat at saka ay tumingin sa akin.

Oh I know this look.

"I'll go pee. I won't escape okay."
I said in assurance.

Meron kasi yung time na sinabi kong gusto ko mapag isa pero umuwi ako ng naka hospital gown pa. Di na ako nag abala na mag bihis dahil gabi naman.
At saka may usapan kami nun ng ex ko...
That's why kahit di niya alam na nasa ospital ako, dumiretso parin ako. Ganun ako ka martyr.

My martyrdom at it's finest.

"Kitty, escort her"
Utos ni Saint.

"The cr is just there" I said sighing. Itinuro ko yung CR na nasa gilid lang naman.

Diko alam kung pati CR makaka takas ako.
Ni wala nga akong dalang kutsilyo o ano.
I'm not even armed. So why bother?

Tumayo na ako at tinanggal ang dextrose hose na nasa kamay ko.

Si ate ay napa singhap sa ginawa ko.

Tumulo ang dugo mula sa kamay ko.
Oh that stung. But I don't care anyways.

"Are you out of your mind A.G! "
Sigaw ni ate.

Pilit siyang kinakalma ni kuya Peter.
Tsk sana all may jowa.

I sighed at my thought.

Dumiretso ako sa CR para umihi at maligo.

Patuloy padin ang pag agos ng dugo mula sa kamay ko. Pero ewan ko. Sa dalas ba naman na pag kuha nila sa akin ng dugo, diko lang alam kung sanay na ba ako o manhid.

Nang matapos akong maligo ay may naka handa ng pagkain para sakin. I frowned when I saw that almost all of the food are vegetables except for one- adobo.

"Hey come, eat dinner A.G, you've been losing weight. You should eat a lot"
Tawag sakin ni Saint.

I smiled.

"But before eating, come on, let's treat your  wounds"

I smiled. Why can't I love this man?
Kahit pa may age gap. It's just two years...

As said, he treated my wounds.

I smiled. Napansin niya yata kaya napangiti rin siya.

"Damn woman I wish I could have you"

Napa lunok ako

"What if you can have me"

He sighed.

"Then I'll be the luckiest man alive, I'll cherish every moment with you, I'll love you everyday always. I will take care of you and lastly, I will treat you like you deserve it. It doesn't matter if you treat me right or wrong, I just want to treat you what I think is the best for you because A.G, you're the best"

I smiled.

Damn I want to have him.
But not yet. Not when I'm still in love with the man who broke me. With the man who crushed my innocent heart.

I don't want to hurt someone who loves me truely. Ayoko. Kahit yon lang magawa kong tama okay na. I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. Mas masarap sa pakiramdam na ang sinasaktan mo ay yung nanakit din sayo. Hindi ang taong nag mamahal sayo ng tunay at totoo.