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The "Touch" Series
Izuku Midoriya was an Omega. His whole life he never once hated the fact that he was born into the weaker sub-gender. It was part of who he was. Izuku wasn't ashamed to say that he was weaker than others, doo...
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(Angst) (Self Depreciation) (NSFW)
I had been pulling away; I knew that. But I couldn't help it for many reasons. Katsuki was being kind to me and I wasn't sure how to receive that affection from him while still protecting my heart. In my heat, all I wanted was to give in to my desires and once again let him claim me.
Take me.
Mark me as his and his alone. However, I know what when my heat faded away and I was back in my right state of mind that I would regret letting things get that far.
My Alpha had another. Someone else that he had gotten close to over the years and now there was such a strain on our bond that I was in pain all the time. How could he not feel my pain? I knew I hadn't been mistaken when I found out he was my mate. He should feel my discomfort at least a small amount.
But he didn't allude to it at all. Katsuki never seemed to care when I was in pain over the strain on our bond and I knew it was because he didn't care about me the way I wanted to care for him.
I had let myself be weak on the first day of my heat. I let myself cave to the desires and pleasures of my mate. I had spent too much time alone for these periods of time, so that when Katsuki had pulled me into his arms, I lost all restraint and only wanted to bask in the pleasures that my mate could bring me.
After that first 24 hours, I must have gotten the majority of the lust out of my system enough to clear my head. I was mortified at first. I wasn't planning on staying around any longer than I had to and letting him touch me like that would only hurt more when I left. I hadn't let anyone touch me like that. He was the first, and probably the last for a long while. At least until the bond was broken and we both could move on past each other.
However, as the days trickled on by, my restraint was dwindling. I could feel Katsuki's frustration that I was refusing his help. But I just didn't want it. I had been fine on my own for years and I sure as hell could handle my heat without his hands on me for one more. I had let him touch me once. That would be enough for me.
Only it wasn't enough; not at all, and the more time I spent fighting off my desires the more I began to regret my decisions. Not because of my Omegan desires to be bred by my Alpha -- but rather my own selfish desires.
I was leaving in the morning. I had it set up, better than last time. I would slip out unnoticed in the early hours of the morning and head home where I had a whole plan set up. Katsuki wouldn't find me. I needed to be away from him and my friends. I couldn't burden them any longer with my own fucked up situation.
I would get better -- and then break our bond on my terms. I didn't need Katsuki.
