Boy of my dreams <<Mattia Polibio🦖

Part 7

I had a bad nightmare about Mattia and Jo screaming at each other and only because of me. When I look at my phone it's already 8 am. I force myself to go sleep again but I can't so I decide to stand up go brush my teeth and go make breakfast for me and Jo. I really hope she doesn't hate me because of yesterday. The question she asked me the day before hovers in my thoughts and I try to think clear but I burn myself accidentally while trying to make some pancakes.

„Shit!" I scream so loud and Jo wakes up.

„It's 8 in the morning and you have nothing better to do than scream?" She asks while laughing at me.

Thank god, she doesn't look upset.

„I made breakfast, you hungry?"

„Thank you y/n but I have to go to Alejandro I'm running late already. That means you have to spend the day on your own." She takes one bite of my self made pancakes and head to the bathroom.

A day all alone? Great.

Should I ask her if she's still mad? How will she react? Nervously I start to play with my pancake and go straight to the bathroom eating the pancake.

„Can I come in, I have to ask you something."

„y/n I just told you I have no time left so-"

„Are you still mad at me?" I interrupt her.

She opens the door and looks at me. Her eyes are wide and her eyelashes look extremely long today.

„No I'm not, Mattia was right. What happened had to happen and we are friends. It's okay for you to have a crush on him." She says, trying to smile.

„I never said I have a crush on him."

„You can tell me lies but you can never lie to yourself." Is all she says before closing the door.

She's right I can't lie to myself but do I really have a crush on him? Hell yes i think I do.

Finally Jo comes out of the bathroom so I can go pee now. She looks great I've never seen her that fancy in my whole life. She is wearing a black skinny short dress with high heels and her make up looks different than usual. Looks like it's a special day for her.

„How do I look?"

„You look gorgeous Jo. Ale will love you and your outfit." I say and really mean it.

„Thank you sweetie and have a good day."  she says before grabbing her phone from the table and walking out of the apartment.

After 3 hours watching some boring movies I hear the doorbell ring. I head downstairs. Is it Jo? I thought she would be gone the whole day?

When I open the door, Mattia is standing in front of me, nervously playing with his fingers.

Fuck.

„Hey y/n, uhm how are you?"

Exactly now I have to look like hell. My hair is in a messy bun and I'm wearing some ugly joggers combined with a white oversized t-shirt.

„I'm fine thanks, how are you?" I ask and try to hide my ugly looking ass  behind the door.

Why is he here? Maybe Jo texted him and said I would be alone the whole day so that he can come by.

„Is Jo at home?"

That just answered my question. He's here to apologize, not because I'm alone.

„I'm sorry, she's not. She's with Ale." I say a little sad.

„Oh okey, well then, goodbye y/n. Maybe I will come by later."

„She will be gone the whole day."

„And you are all alone here in this boring apartment?" He says laughing.

„Uhm yeah." I reply embarrassed.

You can come to my house if you want to."

I try to control my feelings. I want to hug him and jump around the apartment.

„Of course. You can stay here while I change." I try to say calm.

„Uhm wait, you have some chocolate here." He strokes his fingers along my cheek and smiles.

My eyes are trapped in his. I don't want to fight against it. He starts to lick his lips and looks up and down at me so I step closer while blushing. It feels like my heart is about to jump out of my chest. I look at his soft pink lips and he brings his other hand to my face.

No y/n you can't do it. It's not what Jo would want. I am her friend and Mattia broke her heart. What if he breaks mine? My world would collapse. I was a wreck after my mum died and it took me a really long time to heal myself from the pain.

„I will go change." I say harsh and walk away.

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