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The Script

alright so i hope this doesn't turn out to shitty wish me luck lol im so hungry lol munchies are the worst anyways back too writing and you guys back to reading

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As we got ready to go to the auditions i was getting very nervous it been over a year since ive been i any sort of church play or any play at all and apparently its going to be big but not only that it a musical  the very first musical our church has done and not only that i haven't seen some of these people in like over 6 months... they dont know where ive been i mean we have a cover story and all concerning the Nicki i wanted her to come and my friend kacey but its still nerve racking

as i got dressed i decided to wear what what i wear around people im comfortable with or when im lazy it was a long sleeve lack tee under a very oversized Thor shirt that had been my sisters it was lik a 3x because we love oversized things and i paired it with my black air walks and tucked it into a white washed flair jean skirt(hey don't allow pants in church and almost all of my bottoms are sweats or skirts excluding basketball shorts or biker shorts ) then i grabbed my moms very oversized sweater because it was cold out side at least no one would question why im so covered up a lot off them have either accidentally seen my cuts or scars and some others have heard because of rumors but i have some very visible fresh new ones and they look scary.

kacey was kind of  dressed the same she borrowed a skirt of mine and she wore a long tee but also knee highs she has bad scars on her ankle like me but worse mine you an only see if you look close but you can tell there's a lot with there well lets say its  not pretty and she also hasn't shaved well none of us have but im wearing long black leggings so you cant tell

as we were pulling up to the church i saw some off my cousins outside we were a few mintues late so it looked like they were reading over scripts for try outs i was told to tryout for a major lad and then they will place me and kacey said she could be an extra or help in any department thy need so i went inside with thee sript they gave me before and they were in he middle of audition  i had practiced with kace already so i knew what to do all of a sudden i heard an ear piercing sequel from the left.

as i turned around to look i saw some of my cousins talking. over half of the church is family and we have a big church so that's saying a lot .then i saw it a spider that's why she squealed see in my family there a lot of phobias but the popular one among a few of us is spiders because of a camping incident from when we were small so when i saw a whole lot i screamed .all of a sudden every one looked towards me and started talking and coming to hug me and my cousin this squealed screamed literally screamed at the top of her lungs for everyone to move so she could hug me lets just say i was kinda embarrassed but these people were used to this kind of behavior my family's a little extra to say the least.

As i was saying hi to my friends and family i saw him oml he was cute i had never seen anyone that cute well i have but ive never seen them looking back at me the way he was looking al of a sudden i was blushing and i got super conscience of what i as wearing i guess i should have considered people being there that i don't know whenever we have a big play i always meet new people either to the church or around the are from a sister church or they just became a member in a way he looked kind of familiar but i couldn't place him oh well

"HEY ARE YOU LISTENING?!??"

"hmm what ere you saying?" i was asking the people in front of me then my best guy friend from here who i call gay ass Linda because he used to act gay as a joke to make the straight guys uncomfortable then he kinda stopped when i came out but i told him it was funny so i think he still does