Not Just A Lover (SEQUEL)

Chapter 27

Connor still keeps his hand on mine while I take off my sunglasses again to let my eyes properly indulge in his mesmerising blue ones.
"Y/N don't worry....I'm here for you" He says moving closer to me slightly and I frankly didn't mind. In that moment there was something about him that I just craved....maybe it was his compassion or kindness. Several thoughts run through my head right now and I try to get them out because if I act on them or speak.... shit will hit the fan.

"You're amazing Y/N" Connor says then getting up and running off into the ocean. I'm literally left there blushing immensely and smiling awkwardly.

Wtf is wrong with me

1 hour later...
I walk out of the bathroom to see Shawn sitting on the floor tuning his guitar.
"Hey" He says looking at me
"Hi" I reply sitting on the floor opposite him
"What song are you going to play?" I ask
"I'm not sure actually I was still trying to think of a melody for the 14th song"
He sighs clearly stressed
"Hey don't stress about that....we'll get it done" I say placing my hand on his shoulder and he blushes lightly
"Maybe just play a random song like ummm I don't know" I say
"Oooo some Billie Eilish?"He questions
"Ooo yeah you can never go wrong with some Billie Eilish" I smile
"Which song though" Shawn ponders
"Maybe ocean eyes" I suggest
"Ah nice one" Shawn respond placing his capo on one of the frets
Shawn looks for the chords on his phone and begins to strum.

I've been watching you
For some time

Shawn begins to sing but the stops and then sighs.
"What's wrong why did you stop?" I ask
"I don't feel like singing" He pouts
"Aww poor Shawn" I sarcastically say hitting him on the back of his head
"Owwww!" He exclaims
"What? Do you want me to sing or something?" I ask chuckling
"Yh" he replies
"Oh wow ok" I retort
"Ok let's start from the top" Shawn says
"Nah lets start from the midpoint of x" I reply
"Wow you've got a lot of attitude you know" Shawn states smiling
"Yh and you've just noticed now?" I question clearing my throat as Shawn starts to play

I've been watching you
For some time
Can't stop staring
At those oceans eyes
Burning cities
And napalm skies
Fifteen flares inside those ocean eyes
Your ocean eyes
No faiiiiirrr

While I'm singing the rest of the lyrics my mind shifts to Connor

His eyes

His everything

Here I am sitting with my boyfriend singing my heart out to him when I'm not even thinking about him..........I'm think about his goddamn best friend.

Oh my GOD!! Y/N stop thinking about him!!!

Shawn stops halfway.
"You ok honey?" He asks
"Yh I'm fine I-I just don't wanna sing  anymore" I say quickly getting up and walking to the bathroom. I lock the door and stare into the mirror.

I'm not normal....I'm fucking crazy....I-I h-how the FUCK am I thinking about that douche and I'm with my boyfriend who fucking choked me.....

I need to solve this issue

I can't have Connor staying in mind

Do I act on my feelings

Do I just try to find him unattractive

Or do I brea- you know what I'm not even gonna think about that option

A/N
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