Sacrilegious ][ WOOSAN

14

San

There I was, sitting in the silent tension that filled my lunch table. Jongho and Hongjoong eating silently, and Mingi still slightly mad at me for everything. I start to get up to throw away the garbage at the table, and head over to the trash can in the corner of the cafeteria. Suddenly my arm is pulled and I am face to face with none other than Park Seonghwa. My breath hitches, as he pulls me to the center of the cafeteria, and without warning, smashes his lips against mine, harshly and without mercy. 

"Seonghwa, dear God, what are you doing? This isn't just hurting me." I try and convince him to stop, but I can't stop my body from reacting to his actions, his hands sliding up my thigh, his lips soft against mine. I manage to separate from him, too late from keeping people from seeing, and I see the whole cafeteria's eyes on me. Seonghwa leaves me there, and as I head to chase after him, my arm is grasped again, this time I melt to the touch. The skin is all too familiar, and the scent too sweet. My lips are again occupied, but nothing in me can make it stop, the kiss too perfect, like our lips are two puzzle pieces destined to be together. My hand holds the back of his neck, and I press our foreheads together, blocking my body with his back so no one can see my face while I talk to him.

"Wooyoung I swear to God."

"San, I'm sorry, this wasn't my idea."

"Whose was it then, what the fuck is even happening?" Before he can answer, angry footsteps yank me away from Wooyoung, and I am pulled out of the cafeteria by none other than my sweet girlfriend, Yeji. She pulls me into the chapel, and sits me in the front row by the cross that now looms over my head.

"Sannie." I hear quietly, and I turn to see tears streaming down Yeji's face. I try to stand to comfort her to tell her this was all against my will, but there was no hiding the fact that I let those lips linger much longer than any straight person would. "Why? You could have told me, spared me from this embarrassment." Her tears fall faster now, "I didn't deserve this San, I don't deserve you being gay and ruining what we had, what I had here. No one is going to talk to me San, you've ruined everything." She slouches down in the middle of the chapel, her eyes meeting mine, and I run to her side, and hold her hands, letting my tears fall with hers.

We cry together for a long time, we let two class periods fly by, just holding each other. I know full well that neither of us can recover from the damage that the past events created. 

"Yeji we should go."

"I love you San."

"I know you do." There I am taking Wooyoung's line

"Did you ever love me San? Or was this all to distract you from...boys." She scoffed at the last word, and looks at me with slight disgust.

"I admit I was using you as a distraction at first, but you can only fake things so far. A lot of what we had was real, and I almost convinced myself that I wasn't gay, until Wooyoung changed everything." I find myself spilling Wooyoung and I's busy week, as I have only known his name now for ten days. Yeji responds to my story with slow blinks, the tears drying up, and she stands up, pulling me up with her. 

"You didn't know they were going to do that?"

"No, really I had no idea. I don't even like Seonghwa, he's insane or something." She laughs at that lightly, and looks into my eyes. 

"Can I kiss you one last time?" I nod, and she is the one to lean in this time, and I feel her lips, and soon my tears fall once again. I know I've ruined everything with Yeji, and now I don't even know how I stand with Wooyoung. Everything is confusing except for one thing. Yeji's lips are so sweet, for the first time. "Bye Choi San." Her tears fall again, but she exits the chapel quickly, leaving me alone with myself and the large looming cross.

"Fuck Jesus." I mutter as I exit the large chapel, heading straight into the bathroom to clean my face up from the mess that was the past few hours. 

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I just got all of this inspiration for the rest of the book. So expect at most ten more chapters, but we're probably looking at like five. Thank you so much for voting and reading, I love you all!