⚠️TRIGGER WARNING SUICIDE⚠️
Flashback to 15 years old:
Sams pov
Tonight I was going to end it. I hated it here. I realized I didn't have much time so I grabbed my blades.
One cut... Colby doesn't like me
Two ....i don't belong here
Three ... your mother doesn't love you
I cut my arm.
20.. no one loves me. The deepest.
I started to feel dizzy I heard someone running up the stairs. I collapsed onto the bathroom floor. My back hitting the wall my arms hitting the floor. "SAM!" I looked up and saw Colby. Crying.
"Stay with me Sam." He said as he was on a call. "Hi yes, my bestfriend tried to kill himself"
I drifted off once in awhile.
The last thing I heard was an ambulance and Colby saying. "Stay awake Sam"
I woke up. I was in the hospital, my arm connected to an iv. A monitor by my side. I looked around, Colby was asleep in the chair holding my hand. I smiled and grabbed his hand.
He shifted and woke up. "S-Sam. Oh my god your awake please don't ever do that again I thought I lost you." I looked at him, his eyes red and dry. Bags under his eyes. I noticed his knuckles were bruised. I grabbed his hand and rubbed his knuckles gently.
"I'm sorry" I whispered.
He grabbed my hand and made me look at him. "Please don't ever do that again. Your mom came by, she was worried."
I nodded not wanting to think of her.
"When can I leave?" I asked Colby. "They want to keep you here for awhile make sure your okay." I looked down and saw my arm was wrapped up. I sighed.
"I read your letter.. did she really?" I looked up at Colby. I nodded and averted my gaze. I didn't really want to talk about her.
I moved over on the bed. "Can you lay with me?" I saw Colby looking surprised. I smiled and he got up. "Yeah" I felt him wrap his arm around my shoulder I laid my head on his chest. He played with my hair.
"Sam.."
I hummed to let him know I was listening.
"I love you too."
I smiled and drifted off to sleep.
