stay away

You didn't come

It was weird going to school the next day. I felt slightly alone even though I had friends. I wasn't close enough with them yet to talk about what happened with Miles and even if I did tell them I didn't know if Miles wanted me to.
I missed Miles and he wouldn't be joining for another month. He had promised to come and meet me everyday after school, even if I had to go home straight away he said he wanted to see me. I wanted to see him too.
Before Miles, I had recently felt no reason to get up in the mornings anymore. Since I moved I just didn't see the point. I mean, I had friends but not like my old ones. My old friends understood me and I could talk to them about anything. Don't get me wrong, the friends I had made at my school school were rad and I definitely had more in common with them. But I couldn't help feeling that I would never get as close with them. I had been through a lot in the past few years, that's how I got into the drugs, to deal with it all. The only people that supported me were my friends. My parents were completely oblivious to everything going on and I guess we wouldn't have moved if they had known. It wasn't their fault. I was good at hiding my problems. I don't think I would have told anyone but somehow my friends managed to find out. It was all okay now I was completely over my old troubles and didn't like talking about them anymore. Miles would never know. He didn't need to worry about me. He had troubles of his own and he didn't need my past getting in the way of things.
School was pure shit as usual. Lunch and break were okay. I just sat and chilled with violet and all that lot but lessons were dragging so much. I wanted to pass my exams and I knew I had to concentrate and study hard but right now, all I wanted to do was see Miles. It wasn't an obsession. I didn't NEED to see him. But he made me happy and I think I made him happy too and that's all we needed at the moment. We weren't even dating yet but I really hope we would be soon.
My last period felt like it went on for hours but eventually it was the end of the day. As I had Art last with Safire and Joe, I walked out of school with them. They didn't know I was meeting Miles so I just told them my mum was picking me up.
We stepped out of the school gates and I looked around for Miles cheerfully. He was no where to be seen so I waited for a while. After half an hour of waiting I was tired and slightly angry. I made my way home and texted Miles asking for an explanation as to why he didn't show. He never replied.
On Wednesday I asked everyone if they had seen or heard from him in a few days but none of them had. They didn't seem worried though. I thought maybe it was just something Miles did once in a while, but I couldn't understand why he had said he would meet me and then not show up. Kind of a dick move to be honest.
"he's probably just grounded or something I wouldn't think too much about it" Violet said quite rudely.
"yeah don't worry about it Effie, Miles is weird sometimes I'm sure he's fine." Mikey said more sympathetically.
"yeah you are probably right." I replied trying to sound sincere.
But they didn't know what Miles had said to me. They didn't know that we had kissed. But they did know him better than me so maybe I should believe them.
I was hoping that he would be waiting for me outside the school gates that day but I knew I was kidding myself. He wouldn't be there and sure enough, he wasn't. I text him again to check he was alright but still no reply.
It was half 5 and I found myself thinking about Miles again. Did I do something wrong? Was I a bad kisser? Maybe he just didn't feel anything when our lips touched. Before I knew it, I was stepping out my front door and walking to Miles' house. I decided that it didn't care if he didn't want me, I just needed an explanation.