stay away

Planning ahead

Things have been going great with me and Miles over the past few weeks and it's only a few days till he starts school again. He's had a few minor breakdowns and we have sometimes stayed in the woods together until he calmed down a bit. There was one incident at the Mall where he almost punched a guy but I managed to stop him before it went too far. He cries a lot and I do get worried about him. I cry too. He thinks there is something wrong with him but there isn't. He just gets confused and frustrated by stuff that's happened to him in the past. I still haven't told him about my past problems yet and I don't plan to either. I don't want anything triggering him or stopping him from fully recovering.
I can't wait till he comes to school and neither can the rest of the guys. Violet seems especially excited which seemed kind of weird to me but they have been great friends for years so it made sense. Joe and Cassie were saying that we should have a massive party to celebrate.
I really hope Miles will be okay when he comes to school. He's already stressed enough as it is, let alone with all the school work and the exams at the end of the year. Miles is a smart guy though, he should be okay.
I was rushing to get ready to go to Miles' after he had texted me begging me to come over due to some emergency. I was slightly worried but he usually called me when it was something really serious.
When I got to his house he was waiting for me by the front door. I was startled as he grabbed my hand and dragged me upstairs.
"stop, what's the rush Miles?"
"come on I need your help"
"with what? would you stop just a sec."
he stopped and turned around looking down at me.
"is everything okay? are you alright?"
"I'm fine, sorry I worried you. I may have over exaggerated slightly."
he kissed my forehead and opened his bedroom door. There was clothes thrown around everywhere. Almost everything was black and I admired how much he loved that colour. 'Black like our souls' he would always say when we matched. That was usually the case. We just aren't colourful people.
"woah Miles. Having a clear out are we?"
"no, I need you to help me pick an outfit to wear on Monday. I wanna look cool yet slightly hard core."
"you're a weirdo. Miles, all your clothes are basically the same. And anyways, since when did you care what you looked like?"
"I don't know. I guess I want to look good enough to be with you. You are beautiful and perfect and I don't want people to look at us and think why is someone like you going out with someone like me. I'm nothing and you are everything."
"Stop Miles. Why do you put yourself down like that. You are my everything. Why can't you see that? I love you so much. I don't understand why you think I am so much better than you because I'm not. I see the way girls look at you when we are walking around. I see the looks they give me. I'm the one who should feel like nothing. I do most of the time. Me and you are together for us and no one else. Fuck everyone else and their opinions. We need to learn not to care. I love you and you love me right?"
"Of course I do"
"well then, fuck em all."
"God I love you." he said as he looked me in the eyes and then whispered in my ear.
"you will never be nothing. You are my all okay"
"you too"
I stood on my tiptoes and slid my hand behind his head before kissing him forcefully. After a while he pulled away.
"Don't think you can get out of helping me by distracting me with your kisses"
"you love it"
"I do. but still what shall I wear?"
"err Miles I don't know. Wear what you usually wear."
"okay so black jeans it is. ripped or not ripped?"
"wear the ones with one rip in the knee and I will wear my non ripped ones so we don't look completely matching"
"okay and what top? Band shirt or plain one?"
"erm I'm thinking you mix it up a bit and wear your grey one from drop dead."
"ooh grey, is that a little too colourful for me?"
I laughed at him and playfully pushed him.
"Shh you loser. So what shoes you gonna wear?"
"probably my converse. Big boots seem too much for a first day."
"wow who you knew you were so knowledgable about fashion"
"ah there is a lot you don't know about me Miss Quinn"
"Mmm Hmm. if you say so Mr Iero."
"what top you gonna wear Monday then?"
"I don't know I will probably just thrown on anything that's clean on Monday."
"You're a classy one aren't you?"
"indeed i am"