Wildside //NCT Renjun//

XXVI.

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CHAE
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I was sitting in a café with Yoona. She wanted me to tell her every details.
I started to regret confessing my growing crush on Renjun but I felt like saying it out in that moment.
'For the last time, there are no details. I just randomly started feeling weird around him. And since I'm not stupid and was in relationships before I recognised that maybe I like him.'
Yoona rolled her eyes then started smirking again. 'Okay, then tell me the times he made you flustered.'
I started thinking. 'Let me see..
First of all when I saw him in the hideout. His um cold stare really caught my attention.'
'I think that's just his usual face. Maybe he wasn't judging you.'
I rolled my eyes. 'Hard to believe. The next time he almost made my heart yeet out of my chest was when... You know, he interrupted our conversation about his um kissing skills.'
Yoona chuckled. 'Told you he's a good kisser.'
I frowned. 'Well I didn't have a chance to try it.'
'What??' Yoona almost fell down on the chair. 'Donghyuck said-'
'Donghyuck is a coward.' I rolled my eyes. 'We were on it but he interrupted.'
Yoona nodded and started smirking. 'Okay then your first kiss have to be REALLY special.'
'Oh gosh. Don't overcomplicate it. I'm not in love with him, I just have a little crush.' I rolled my eyes then pointed at Yoona. 'And there's still the chance he doesn't like me back.'
Yoona slapped the table. Everybody looked at us but she didn't care. 'If Renjun doesn't like you then I'm an only child.'
I frowned. 'What you're tryna say is...?'

Yoona sighed. 'There's no way he doesn't like you. Just as I have a brother so there's no way I'm an only child.'
'Okay...' I frowned and took a sip from my coffee. The Kims (Kyungseok and Yoona) are very weird if you think about it.

*

'Are you ready?'
'I will never be.' I mumbled and tried to ignore the pain in my legs.
After a week full of painful taekwondo classes with Renjun I was still at a seven years old's level. But I started at a five's so I guess it's not that bad..?
'I'm sure you will be a black belt master... In your next life.' Renjun bursted out laughing.
'You're not funny.' I complained and swang my arm up to punch his shoulder but he caught my wrist.
'Don't test me, we both know you would enjoy if...' He suddenly stopped.
I raised one of my eyebrows
playfully. 'If...?'
'If you could actually puch me but that's not gonna happen since I have better reflexes than you.' he smirked and let go of my hand.
Well, that pretty much sums up our relationship in these days.
We gotten pretty close and talk a lot during practice and at home, after work. He sometimes comes to the café too and we talk when I don't have work. That really sucks because his words makes me fall for him more and more.
We told each other our fucked up childhood. I also told him about my messed up family and that's really rare.
I think we're both pretty reserved people who don't like open up about their feelings but somehow we ended up sharing our thoughts.
But also there's a weird tense between us. He flirts with me try to approach me a lot but he always backs up suddenly. Maybe I'm just delusional and see things that doesn't exists. Like Renjun's affection towards me.

After the end of the class, I was down.
I promised myself not to fall in love again after my last break up. And yet here I am falling for guy who doesn't like me (I'm getting more and more sure about it).
'Hey, you seem a bit off. Are you okay?' Renjun dragged me back to the real life with his worried voice.
I nodded. 'Yes, I'm just stuck in my thoughts.'
'What were you thinking about?'
'You.'
Renjun frowned. He thought I was kidding. 'Really?'
I shrugged my shoulders. 'Yeah.' Why would I deny it? He's always on my mind anyways.
Renjun smirked. 'And? You listed all my sins I've ever comitted against you?'
'Maybe.'
His smirk faded as soon as he saw I'm not (in the mood for) joking. The guy stopped stretching (because we were supposed to do that) and crawled next to me on four feet.
He leaned his back against the wall and sat down just like me.
'Is there any problems? Tell me honestly.'
I crossed my arms around my knees and shook my head. 'No.'
He brushed his hair with his fingers. 'If you won't tell me, I can't help.'
'You don't have to.'
'But I want to!'
I turned my back to him. I don't wanna face him. I can't look into his beautiful eyes with the thought of my one sided love.
He sighed in annoyance. 'Look I-'
I stood up and started walking to the door. 'Stop worrying, you did nothing wrong. I'm just a dumb bitch.'
I heard a quiet 'what are you doing to me' then footsteps followed me. Renjun grabbed my wrist and turned me around to face him. Then-to my biggest surprise-he gave me a little kiss on the lips.
I was still frozen in the same position when Renjun stormed out of the practice room.
After trying to recollact myself I went out too.
What the heck. What the actual heck. What the actual fricking heck. What the actual fricking fracking heck. What the-