Black Boy

Physicality

I am a 6'6, muscular, chocolate brother. In one hand I hold a basketball and in the other I hold a football. In one pocket there's money and drugs and the other pocket holds a pistol. Based off this false advertisement that my physicality gives off these are my only options in life. My skin has so much melanin that it intimidates even my own kind. My skin holds so much melanin that I have no choice but to be tall, strong, and angry. My skin holds so much melanin that I must never pick up a book and instead pick a sport or sell drugs until I'm dead or in a cell. Society says that my skin is bad, just because I'm black I've never had my dad. Society says I'll leave my child's life just as he left mine, I'll have a different baby mother for every child and I'll be in debt due to child support. When I show my skin in public people avoid eye contact, people talk to me like they're above me and that's if they even decide to speak. Society won't give me a job because I might scare customers. No matter how well spoken I am or how nicely in introduce myself I am judged purely off my appearance. When that cop pulled me over for the fifth time in the past month leaving my local gas station he didn't blink. He never moved a muscle. He had one hand on the top of my car and the other on his pistol as he asked who's car I was driving. Yes who's car I was driving is what he asked, not for my ID or registration. At that moment time stopped and I realized he had no intention on keeping the area safe, but to see if he can bring the " evil " from this black man. They're never down with the brown, in fact brown backwards is " n-word". But I digress. None the less Trying to become a man ... a BLACK man can break you mentally, physically, and emotionally.