Complicated (R.S.L/ R5)

Chapter 3

After Shopping Trip

It's 6 o clock and Rydel and I have just come home after a whole day of shopping. I feel so tired and dizzy, because I haven't eaten anything the whole day, but I refuse to give Ross more reasons to insult me. And if that means not eating for a while, so be it. We both staggered in, arms filled with shopping bags. We crashed into their living room, almost collapsing.

All the boys looked at us, diverting their attention from the TV screen.

"What the hell?" Riker asked.

We laughed and put the bags down.

"Uh... let's just say we had a lot of fun shopping," Rydel said.

Ross smirked.

"What size did you get Alyssa? 20?"

I looked down, not replying.

Rydel frowned.

"No actually. She didn't."

"Oh sorry. 24?" He asked.

I shook my head silently.

"Rydel... I'm just going to go home," I said to her.

"No stay!" She said quickly.

The rest agreed with her except for Ross, which I didn't expect anyway. I nodded and sat down, trying to stay as far away from Ross as I could.

"Let's go up to my room, yeah?" Rydel asked brightly, trying to pretend she couldn't see the tension between the two of us.

I got up and followed her to her room. We sat down on her bed, the two of us silent. She finally spoke up.

"How does this not affect you?"

I sighed.

"It does affect me. It affects me more than I let on. I.. even though it's been so long, it's still hard to believe that he hates me so much. We were friends for so long, and now..."

I looked away, not wanting to say anymore.

"Rydel, I'll be back in a moment. I'm just going to the washroom."

She nodded and I stood up and left her room. I went to the washroom and washed my face, trying to not let my face look blotchy from the tears that were threatening. I dried my face and left, only to be pulled by my arm into a room. They shut the door and I turned to look at them.

I faced Ross, who was locking the door and rubbing his hands together. I gulped, trying to psyche myself up for the pain that I knew was going to occur. He stepped closer to me, each step making my heart beat faster.

"Please dont Ross. Please," I begged.

"Why should I listen to you?" He spat.

I breathed in, trying to say the words that were going through my head.

"Because you love me," I whispered.

His face turned to anger and disgust, his eyes looking deadly.

"Don't ever say that again. What, you think this is what I would do to someone I love?"

"Well, you love me and you're doing it to me," I said, trying to convince myself more than him.

"I don't love you! You're unlovable! No one will ever love you, let alone me!" He said angrily.

"Well, you told me you loved me! I don't care if it was five years ago, you still said it," I retaliated.

Pain seemed to wash over his face, before it hardened again.

"I said don't say that!"

He stepped forwards and slapped me, the impact making me fall on the floor. As I fell, I hit my head on the floor, pain shooting through. I brought my hand up to my head, to be greeted by something warm and wet. I brought my hand in front of me to see it stained red. I looked up at Ross who looked emotionless, but I could see the concern in his eyes. I tried to stand up, feeling weak and dizzy.

I stood up, swaying slightly. My stomach was growling, begging for food, but I refused to give in.

"Why are you swaying so much?" He asked harshly.

"I... I haven't eaten anything for the whole day and my head is bleeding," I whispered.

His eyes flashed, whether it was with concern or anger I didn't know.

"That's stupid. Even if you don't eat, you're not going to get any skinnier. Why bother?" He asked.

"Maybe I won't, but the next time you call me fat, I can at least say that I tried to lose weight. Then you won't be able to blame me for that," I said, anger coming over me.

"Are you talking back to me?" He asked incredulously.

"Yeah, I am. I'm fed up of you pushing me around!" I screamed.

He smirked.

"Oh, you mean like this?" He asked, shoving me with all his strength against a wall.

"Enough Ross! I'm not a doll, one you can just push around and expect nothing to happen to! I have a limit as well!"

"I don't expect nothing to happen to you. I know how much it must hurt. That's why I'm doing it to you!" He hissed.

"Why?! Why are you just out to hurt me?!" I haven't done anything to you!"

His eyes darkened, filled with hatred. He pushed me towards the door.

"Get out. I don't want to see you," he said blankly.

I ran out of there, clutching my head. I burst into Rydel's room, gasping for air as tears slid down my face. When she saw me, she got up immediately and came over.

"What happened?" She gasped.

"Ross..... He... He..." I said between pants.

"Ross did this?!"

I gulped. I forgot I hadn't told her that Ross abuses me. Oh crap...

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