Venus (Book 2)

emotions

so I'll cry

cry until my pillow becomes nothing more than just a river

a puddle

I'm spilling

my emotions lay with me

I'm confused

I don't know what to do anymore

where do I go to

Whom do I run to

I have no one

no one who understands

no one who can hold me and tell me

that it'll be alright

pathetic is all I am

miserable annoying and pathetic

spilling

crying an ocean

the only thing I'm good at

the only thing I can do

is be sad

and cry it out

why do I write?

what's the point?

my emotions pour out like an abstract picture

my emotions flood on every part of the plain white

I'm a mistake

I'm such a big mistake

I am nothing more than a disappointment

I've embarrassed my family and friends

I have made decisions that I regret

all this wouldn't have happened if I wasn't so fucking sad

no one understands that

I'm not capable

I'm not capable of living this life

I need a break

a long break

I need to depart from this horrible world

I need

I need someone

someone to keep me away

trap me in their beauty and kindness

though I will never find anyone

I've lost hope

I'm done and I'm tired

I've abandoned myself

I've stopped talking to everyone

I'm so

sad

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