I ask why things happen to me
why must I go through so much pain
but it is life
it is what it's meant to do
life
is full of pain
no matter where I hide
whoever's arms I'm in
I'll still get hurt
I loved someone
I loved them with all my heart
I tried my best
to keep them
but life tore them apart from me
left me alone
let me cry on my knees
once they left
everyone left too
now I am truly alone
alone in my thoughts
yes, I don't think anyone cares
and if they do
it's not enough
I don't think you care
you don't show it
I know it isn't your fault
but you did nothing
how was I supposed to feel it?
when you did nothing to make me feel it
I only knew it
and knowing
didn't make me feel better
it made me worse
knowing you loved me but were not capable of showing it
it hurt
I am hurt
and it isn't your fault
see, I felt it
I felt it and I knew it
I knew things would not work
but I only tried because of you
you made me fall
I did not want to fall
and the other...
the moment I saw her
I told myself
this is gonna hurt, and it's gonna hurt real bad
my heart warned me away from her
yet
again
I never listened
I ignored my heart until she broke it
until I was trembling on the floor
holding a blade in my hand
blood spilling and staining
I knew yet I did it anyway
and you really don't know
how much I hate myself for it
I talked to them
I shouldn't have
it hurt my heart
I felt the relationships building more and more
how selfless I was
I wish I could go back and scream at myself
I knew they'd leave me and break me
yet I still
I still walked up to them
I still wrote them letters
gave them sweets and gifts
I hugged them
I held their hands
I kissed their head
why did I do such a horrible thing?
just for a little amount of love, just so I couldn't be lonely...
it was never worth it
it only made me sadder
and lonelier than I have ever been
1:11 am
YOU ARE READING
Venus (Book 2)
PoetryA second poetry book, describing my pain, fear, and of course, sad moments as well as happy... You are not alone, and I'm sure you can get through this, we can work on this together. I wish you all the best in life! 2017