Venus (Book 2)

flawed

you must realize I am human, I'm in no control of how I feel, I am flawed, it was how I was made, I am flawed

I have no advice so you just leave, my words mean nothing now when I pretend I do not understand, but you see

I understand very well, pretend, pretend for it sets me free, I have my burdens I do not need yours, my shoulders are weighed down my coats of blue, red and black

I have no time to think about you, oh how selfish of me to constantly think of me, but what you do not know is that I have been planning, planning the moment when my eyes have gone out, gone out of the fire in me

I see the truth that is why I am in pain, if I could only lie to myself then I would be happy, happy caught up in a fantasy, but then there would be nothing to learn, life has tested me and I shall not fail

I have failed many times, I do not need more, if you are causing me to sin then you must leave, my heart must be pure and clean

pure and clean of my sins and selfishness

I am no angel nor God, I beg for forgiveness and cry in the night, I fall asleep on a pool of tears

I am nothing more than what you are, I only have different sins, I am ashamed of what I have done, I repent I repent but how do I know when I am forgiven?

I am flawed, I am flawed

I must be perfect and clean

my eyes have swollen and I am tired, here comes another night of endless begging and the cries of my heart

2:37 am