Venus (Book 2)

had my soul

we had each other, every day, every night 

 and sometimes I wonder, when the doors of death have opened to me,

would you walk in? 

or would you watch it? 

would you hold my hand? 

or let the past become greater? 

I wonder if you would come back, 

although I know you won't, 

you don't know me anymore... 

you'll watch me leave 

I'm sure 

even if you saw through me,

even if I saw through you, 

we knew each other like no other, 

but, 

even if we did, we no longer do, 

and ego is a drug, 

what makes you think you're chasing me? 

you don't chase someone you call family 

do you? 

I don't 

you could have called 

you could have asked my mother

you could have asked my sister 

you could have asked... 

but you did not 

you did not ask 

you did not come back 

instead 

you built a wall 

a wall

of 

what you thought was a betrayal 

and abandonment 

but it was not what I had done 

you saw it wrong 

I left 

I left because I was hurt 

I left, 

because I needed to understand what love, happiness, and life was 

I did not understand life 

you and I met at my worst, 

it was a horrible time 

I'd apologize 

even though I know it isn't my fault 

but fighting with you...

it's pointless

you never understood

you will never understand 

12:26 pm