The Words I've Never Said

Worth It?

Where'd it all go?
It's been a while since I've seen it around.
I've been noticing that it's been changing.
Changing itself and everyone around it.
Maybe it's burrowed deep in the earth, hiding from me.
Or perhaps it's lost, never to be seen again.
A mass extinction has wiped out all of the love around us.
Love has been a big part of my life.
It comes and goes.
Fades away and tends to come back like the cold frigid winter.
Don't let it define you, let it guide you.
Don't let it hurt you, let it bring knowledge and wisdom.
Love is all how you make it out to be.
It could be the best thing that's ever happened to you, or can cause you to spiral into a pit of agonizing depression.
It can accept you or leave you hanging with a puzzled look on your face.
Thus altering your life and most importantly theirs.
It's crazy how love can make you bold and weak all at the same time.
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I feel the heat of her eyes on my cheeks.
I turn and she looks away.
Ah, so we're going to play this game?
I feel like I've been in this same situation before.
I ponder if I should go over there and just talk to her.
Quit being a coward, get yourself together.
Who cares about the past, move on and be happy.
You deserve happiness and inner tranquility.
Yet pessimism continues to flood my mind.
But unfortunately there's always this one mental block.
That one daunting, irritating question.
The question that makes my heart and mind go to war with each other.
Is love even worth it?
11/22/19
1:57 PM
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愛することは簡単ではありません