Still Hated

Still Hated- part 9

"What are you planning to do? It's not like you would actually hurt me, right?" I asked Noah. I was so scared I was about to cry. I was so nervous to ask this, but I had to. Noah had hurt me before, slapped me around and all, but I don't think he would kill me. Hopefully.

            "Not if you do exactly what I say. But I promise you, I'm not afraid to hurt you." His voice was monotone and ice cold.

            He focused on the road without ever changing his stare. The tress zoomed past in a blur. We were out of town now, and I had no clue where we were.

            "Where are we going?" My voice shook as I asked. He said he wouldn't hurt me if I did what he said, but I couldn't trust him. This could be my last day alive.

            "My house, I need you to see something." His voice was still like stone, solid and cold.

            "Noah, if you let me go, I promise I won't tell anyone about this." That was it, tears started coming and I was hysterical. "Noah, please! I just want to go home."

            "Katt, I'm not going to hurt you." He slammed on the brakes and I hit the back of the seat. "God, I'm sorry. Why do I keep hurting you? What's wrong with me? I've never done anything like this to anyone before! And then you come, and I start acting like this!" He turned around to face me. His face looked sad and disgusted. And I actually felt... bad for him.

            "Wait, you never did this to anyone before?" I was shocked; I had always thought that this was his regular thing with girls.

            "Well, once before. Do you want to know why Chris hates me so much? The other girl was his sister. I never hit her, just... I just... touched her. I didn't mean to, but it happened. And I honestly felt horrible. I promised that it would never happen again, but then you came. And I liked you so much, and I don't know what happened. I'm sorry." He was talking so fast that I could barely understand him.

            "If someone likes somebody, they don't rape them and hit them!" I screamed.

   "I know. I was going to do it right, buy you gifts and take you out to dinner. But when we were in the field, I lost it. Something snapped and I raped you." He sounded shocked, like he just realized it. "And I got scared, and I hit you. And I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. And I know that I can never make it up to you."

"I was a virgin. I wanted to save it for someone special. Someone that I was in love with. And now they get something that's damaged and ruined, all because of you."

"You're not ruined or damaged, you're perfect still. Nothing is ever going to change that. Katt, I'll never hurt you ever again. I'll make sure no one ever hurts you again. I'll do everything I can do to make sure you get everything you want." A few tear spilled over his eyes.

"Noah I won't tell anyone about what you did. As long as you take me home now."

He just nodded his head and restarted the car.

"Katt," He started but hesitated.

"What?" I asked.

"I think I did everything I did because I was starting to uhm... fall in love with you. I know I knew you for a couple of days, but there was just an attraction. You are the most beautiful, and sweet, and amazing person I have ever met. And I can't believe I hurt you."

"Well, maybe I did give my first-time to someone I loved, too. Something great could have happened between us, you know." Noah was the first guy to pay me any attention, or make me feel pretty, to make me feel special.

"I'm not sure if I ever stopped caring about you. And I know I have the worst way of showing it, but I can change. I'll never hurt you again."

"I never stopped either. And if you changed, then maybe..." My mom always told me if a guy ever hurt you, he was going to hurt you again. But I believed what Noah was saying. He was the first guy who I had ever had any feelings for, and I did believe something wonderful could happen between us.

"Wait, are you giving me a second chance?" He stopped the car again and looked back at me.

Why was he so cute?

"That's exactly what I'm saying." I couldn't believe I was doing this.

He crawled over into the backseat next to me and held my face. He just stared at me for a second and then kissed me. A loving, sweet, passionate kiss.

And for whatever reason, kissed him back.

And then for whatever other reason, I decided to actually make love in the back of the car.