Words I Didn't Say / cb

7

"What are we staring at?" Jack drunkly asked. I guess he was confused knowing he doesn't know what Colby looks like.

"I'll see you later, alright?" Kat asked me, making me look at her. I lightly smile as I nod my head. She walks away, leaving us three by ourselves.

"I need air, I'm going outside." I tell them as I walk outside. I sit on a lawn chair as I start drinking. I thought I was doing better with the breakup.

I thought I was starting to feel better. That was until I looked into his eyes. I can't be in the same room as him.

He looked different. Like he hadn't be sleeping or eating. It looks like the breakup is taking a toll on both of us.

"Vee." I hear behind me. I recognize that voice and it felt like my heart could drop. I turn around to see Colby standing behind me.

I stand up without explaining anything and walk away. Or at least I tried to. "Please, I just wanna apologize." He sounded like he was about to break.

I turn to see him looking at me, sorrow in his eyes. "Apologize for what?" That sounded a lot colder than it meant to sound.

"For cheating. For breaking your heart. And your trust. It was a dick move." I made sure to keep my distance from him cause I didn't want to get to close.

"You cheated, Colby. How am I supposed to forgive you for that?" I really wanna forgive him, I just don't want to get hurt again, so I'm doing this for myself.

"It's not what it looked like." I didn't want this conversation right now, I just wanted to have a good time with my friends.

I heard footsteps come up behind me so I turned and it was Finn. "Is he bothering you?" He asked getting protective.

"I'm fine." I say to Finn. I look back over at Colby to see him staring at us. "I'm sorry Colby, I just don't trust you." I could see the color leave his face when I said that.

"Please. Don't push me away." I was pushing him wasn't I? I'm just protecting myself. "I'm sorry." I look up at Finn and started walking away.

"You wanna go home?" Finn asked as we walked back inside. "No, I wanna drink." I walk back to the drinks and started pouring harder liquor.

That's when Jack came over to me. "Your ex looks like a dick." He said as he sipped on his drink. "Trust me, he is." I started gulping on my drink making the boys look at me.

"You sure you wanna do that?" Finn asked as I just shrugged at him. "Who cares, lets just drink." I wanted to forget the whole conversation with Colby.

After a couple of drinks, I could for sure feel the alcohol kick in. I was sitting on the couch next to Jack as I finished my other drink.

"I think you've had enough to drink, love." Jack took my drink, making me pout. "You called me love." I giggle as he looks at me.

"Yes, I did." He said as I stared at him. "You know, you're really cute." I hiccuped afterwards, causing him to laugh.

"And you're very drunk." He said looking at me. I took my finger and booped his nose. He laughed, showing me his pearl whites.

I then looked over to see Finn walking towards us. But everything was dizzy. "I need to lay my head down." I say as I lean my head on Jack's shoulder.

"You okay, Vee?" I heard Finn ask as I close my eyes. "I'm just going to sleep." I giggle. I rarely giggle. "I think it's time for you to leave, Vee." Finn told me.

I opened my eyes so I could look at him. "Carry me." He sighed as he grabbed my legs and my mid back to pick me up.

He picked me up bridal style as Jack stood up to call an Uber. "Finn, you should get a girlfriend." I honestly tell him as we walk outside.

I didn't remember much of the car ride home honestly. Maybe I did drink a little too much. Cause right when I got to Finn's house, I threw up in their bathroom.

"I'm gonna call Luke and explain you're hungover." Finn told me as I sat in the bathroom. Jack stayed with me to make sure I was okay.

"I'm sorry I got so drunk. Did I say anything stupid?" I ask making him laugh a little bit. Throwing up sobered me up a little.

"You called me cute and then booped my nose." I could feel my face get red when he explained it to me. "I'm so sorry." I laugh it off as Finn walks in.

"I just talked to Luke, he said you can stay home tomorrow and get some rest. Jack will be here if you need anything." He explained.

I smiled at the thought of him doing this for me. But then I thought about Jack. "Do you not work tomorrow?" I ask curious.

"I'm off." He explained as I nodded my head. "Well, I'm going to bed, I have to work tomorrow. I'll see you two then." He explained as he walked off.

I looked over at Jack as we sit on the bathroom floor. "I can help you to the couch, if you want." Jack offered as I agreed.

He stood up and offered me his hand. I took and slowly got up, feeling weak. "You okay?" He asked as I held onto his hand.

"I'm good." I say as we make it to the couch. I plop down on it as he looked on me, up and down. "Here, stay there. I'm gonna get you some clothes and a blanket." He told me, walking off.

He's so sweet. I just can't believe I called him cute. This whole situation is so messed up. He came back with a sweatshirt and a pair of sweats with a blanket.

"Here, I'm gonna head to bed too. I'll see you tomorrow." He smiled as he handed me everything. I took it as he awkwardly walked off.

Maybe this wasn't a bad Halloween after all.