Mutual

Chapter nineteen

Jacks POV

There's a knock at my door and I instantly know it's Y/N. I can't tell her, she already knows too much. She knows something is up. Sonny knows and I can't let someone else know. She knocks again, becoming a little more persistent. I quickly wipe my eyes and open the door for her.

Y/N: "You okay?"
Me: "Yes, of course."
Y/N: "You've been crying." Damn it.
Me: "I'm fine, what did you want?"
Y/N: "I came to see if you were okay, which you're clearly not. I want to finish the conversation we were having in the kitchen."
Me: "Well I don't"
Y/N: "Okay, fine. I'm here for you though, always." She extends her arms, motioning for me to hug her. I step into her, wrapping my arms around her waist and resting my head on her shoulder.
Me: "Thank you. I appreciate it." She hears my voice crack and pulls me in tighter. I can't help the tears that overspill.

It's a couple of hours later and I walk out of my room to get some food. I haven't eaten all day and it's taking a toll on me. However, at that moment, Sonny comes out of his room. He spots me and gives me a weak smile.

Me: "Sonny, don't."
Sonny: "I just want to help."
Me: "WELL YOU CAN'T!" Hearing the commotion, Kathryn walks out of Sonny's room and places her hand in his.
Kathryn: "Everything okay?"
Me: "Yes, everything's just peachy." With that, I retreat back into my room. The food will have to wait.

I unlock my phone and see I've got a new message.

Katy: When are you gonna introduce me to your friends, baby? I don't like being hidden.
Me: Soon.
Katy: Do you want to... come over tonight? We can do some things ;)
Me: I'm busy.
Katy: What is more important than me?
Me: Nothing, I've got to go to studio with the boys tonight.
Katy: You better not be lying to me, babe. You know what happens to naughty boys like you.
Me: I'm not, don't worry.
Katy: We'll see about that.

*flashback*

Me: "Please, no..."
Katy: "Come on baby, I just want to have a little fun."

I don't have the energy to push her off me. She sits directly on top of me, not caring about the fact that she is crushing my ribs. I'm too weak to do anything so I lay my head back and close my eyes. The weight is lifted off of me, I'm pulled up into a sitting position. My shirt is physically ripped off my chest, clean in half. That was my favourite... I'm pushed back down as she pushes back down on my chest, hard enough to create a messy bruise. She then leans over to kiss me, but I don't kiss back. She moves down and starts sucking my neck.

Me: "Katy, please. I don't want to do this." She halts and looks into my eyes with a cold expression that I can't read.
Katy: "You. Don't. Get. A. Choice." 

She brings her hand up to slap me and I flinch. Her hand never meets my cheek. I open my eyes to see her looking around as if trying to listen for something.

Katy: "Did you hear that?" 
Me: "Hear what?"
Katy: "Nothing, must have been my imagination." She says slowly, her voice uneasy. 

We're in some sort of storage warehouse, behind some boxes on a thin mattress. I take the opportunity of her being a little distracted and I push her off me and use the last of my energy to run to where I think the door is. Turns out, there isn't a door there. I don't get the chance to think about my next option when a large object pummels into me and I go flying to the floor. Fuck, I hit my head pretty hard. Katy is again sat on top of me and starts hitting me all over. Suddenly, I hear footsteps and I scream. The pain in my head becomes too overwhelming, and before I know it, I pass out.

*end of flashback*

Me: "Boys, can we go to studio tonight?"
Rye: "What why?"
Me: "The roadies are getting impatient and want a new cover."
Andy: "When have they ever decided when they get content?"
Me: "Umm, well."
Andy: "Exactly. It's nighttime anyway."
Me: "Well I just though because Selena just released a new song, you'd wanna get it up as soon as possible."
Brooklyn: "Selena just uploaded a new song?"
Me: "Yeah like, twelve minutes ago. It's called 'Lose You To Love Me'."
Andy: "Could be a good idea, I suppose."
Me: "Please?"
Rye: "Why are you so desperate to go tonight?"
Me: "Erm, I'm avoiding someone."
Rye: "Why can't you avoid them in your room?"
Sonny: "Because he probably made up an excuse of going to the studio in order to block plans with someone."
Andy: "How do you know that?"
Sonny: "Err, I don't. I guessed, hence why I said probably."
Me: "Yeah, what he said."
Rye: "What's going on guys? We aren't stupid."
Sonny: "Yeah well maybe you should be just this one time."
Andy: "What do you mean?"
Me: "He means just ignore it and go with it. Come on let's go."
Rye: "Fine, lemme just get my stuff."
Brooklyn: "What about Y/N and Kathryn?"
Me: "What about them?"
Brooklyn: "Well, what are they doing?"
Me: "I don't know, ask them."
Brooklyn: "Okay." He sends a text to someone and almost immediately, the phone pings in response. "They're gonna stay here if that's okay."
Andy: "Course."

At the studio, I finish doing my parts and come into the room where the others are sat. Andy is going in next but is just learning the last of his lines and the melody. My phone starts buzzing and I see Katy face timing me. I answer, not wanting to think about what she'll do if I don't. The images pass my mind anyway. 

Me: Hey.
Katy: You at the studio?
Me: Yes, like I said before. I switch the camera around to show her the boys and the recording studio.
Katy: Okay. Are those your bandmates?
Me: Yes.
Katy: Introduce me.
Me: Oh, I don't know...
Katy: Jack... Her harsh tone startles me, even though I should be used to it by now.
Me: Err boys, this is my girlfriend, Katy. Katy, this is Andy, Rye, Brooklyn and Sonny.
Rye: You have a girlfriend, Jack?
Me: Umm.
Katy: Oh, you didn't tell them about me? Are you trying to hide me? Why would you possibly want to do that? Her voice sickly sweet.
Me: Just umm... been busy and must have slipped my mind? 
Katy: How can someone, as special as me might I add, slip your mind?
Me: Well, I just wanted to keep you all to myself I guess.
Katy: Sweet. I'm so lucky to have you. Anyway, I've got to go. I love you.
Me: Err, I love you too. I don't.
I hang up.

I glance at the boys to see they all have their mouths hanging open, except Sonny of course. His mouth creates a hard, thin line. Is he disappointed? Angry? Concerned? I run into the bathroom and I'm so anxious I'm sweating profusely. I take my shirt off to let my skin breathe. The door opens and Sonny comes through. Shit, I must have not locked the door in my hurry. He's about to say something when his eyes drop to my torso and widen. For fuck's sake, this was not meant to happen. I pull my shirt back on.

Sonny: "Jack..."
Me: "Just leave it, Sonny."
Sonny: "You didn't tell me she hit you..."
Me: "That's because she didn't. I just walked into furniture."
Sonny: "You walked into furniture?" He raises an eyebrow and I hang my head, embarrassed.
Me: "Yeah, many times."
Sonny: "That's a load." 

I sneak a glance at him and all I see is sympathy. My eyes glaze over. Sonny rushes up to me and embraces me, and I place my head in the crook of his neck. The lump in my throat rises and the sobs take over me. They have full control. Sonny just holds me as I shake. I hear the door open and a gasp, before another set of arms are wrapped around me. Judging from the size, I know that it's Andy. I pull away and wipe my eyes on the back of my sleeve. 

Andy: "I think Selena and the roadies are going to have to wait. Come on, let's head back to the house."
Me: "I'm sorry."
Andy: "Don't be. When we back we can all cuddle together with blankets, drink hot chocolate and stick a movie on in the background whilst you explain why you're so upset." 

He gives me a warm smile and it takes everything I have not to cry again. Grow a pair, Jack.