Dear Sebastian

chapter fourteen

Dear Sebastian,

My life is one hell of a rollercoaster and I hate having no choice

Love,
Alex

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Turbulence of Life..
ALEX

Our family is sleeping peacefully in our MountainView Mansion when a piercing call tore the silence of the starless night. A call that change my life course forever.

"Baby girl" my Mom call sabay ng mahinang yugyog.

"Mom? Why are you crying?" Naalimpungatan kong tanong

"Kailangan natin lumuwas ng Manila" she say sa pagitan ng kanyang mga impit na hikbi

"Is everything okay?" Napabalikwas kong tanong

"No" she sob "Joaquin got into an accident" napatutop ako ng bibig

"Whaat? How Mom? Nakita ko lang siya kanina" iyak ko

"He took his car while drunk, pinatulog niya lang parents niya" paliwanag ni Mommy "sumalpok sya sa concrete island malapit sa hotel"

"Is he okay?" Tanong ko

"No baby nag aagaw buhay siya your Mama Gabrielle needs us now" she said as she busy stacking my pillow, she is crying

Kung hindi ako nakahiga malamang nabuwal ako sa pag kakatayo, I bit my pillow as I nervously cry.

"Alex move" utos ng Mommy ko pero parang ang layo ng boses niya. Despite the trance like moment eh nakuha kong tumayo.

I went to my walk in closet and took a jacket at mabilis na tumalima pababa. Pag pasok ko sa family van namin ay matiim akong tiningnan ng Daddy ko.

"Baby aren't you going to change?" Tanong niya.

"I wanna see Quin" sagot ko instead "let's go Dad"

It seems like ako nga lang ang hinihintay kasi nag start ng umandar ang van.

Sari saring thoughts ang tumakbo sa isipan ko, paano at bakit nangyayari kay Joaquin to. Joaquin who is always there for me since the moment na nagkaisip ako.

Flashback
Joaquin, 6/Alex, 5

I was crying, ang sama ng loob ko my classmates do not want to play with me. They hate me, sa kadahilanang hindi ko maintindihan.

"Lex? What are you doing here?" He asked

"Wala" matipid kong sagot

"Why you're not playing with your friend?" Kunot noo niyang tanong

Humugot ako ng malalim na buntong hininga, nahihiya akong malaman niya na ayaw nila akong kalaro kaya nag kibit balikat nalang ako maya mya dumating na ang mga kaklase si Joaquin

"Pree let's go na laro na tayo" yaya ni Geof

Tiningnan sila ni Primo and and he look at the ball that he is holding walang salitang pinasa niya kay Geof ang bola.

"Kayo nalang muna, mag sswing kami ni Lexie eh" saad niya na ikinagulat ko

"What, ano ba yan" angal ni Geof pero Primo didn't mind him instead he took my hand

"Lika Lex swing tayo sa play ground" yaya niya

Nagliwanag ang naiiyak kong mukha "Gusto mo kong kalaro?" I ask

"Oo naman, kaw kaya favorite kong kalaro tara" yakag niya

Maningning kong tiningnan ang likod ni Joaquin na tumatawang hatak ang kamay ko.

"Thank you Quin for saving me" bulong ko.

"Ano ka ba, for life Lexie you will always have me" saad niya

"Likewise" nakangiti kong sambit "Promise" dagdag ko.

Nagkatinginan kami at sabay na tumawa that day, eh buong araw kaming nag laro sa playground.

**** end of flashback ****

I can always have him..

You promise me Quin na I will always have you kaya don't die! Pipi kong dasal sa waiting area as the rest of the Yeos and Sorianos fervently wait for the doctor na lumabas. After a gruesome six hours, walang tulog at walang kain the door in the operating room open.

"Doc? Kamusta po yung anak ko?" Humahangos na tanong ni Mama Gabb

"Well we have done everything, sa awa ng Diyos, eh naagapan namin ang mga internal bleeding. Primo suffered from multiple fracture, one of his rib slightly puncture his lung pero naagapan din before his lung colapse buti nalang isa lang at hindi malawak ang damage. His right leg is broken, series of operations and tremendous theraphy is needed para makalakad siyang muli. All and all we can say na successful ang operation but the ball is in the patient's hand let us all pray na kayanin niya at lumaban siya he will be transferred to ICU for now for close monitoring . Let us pray for the best Mrs Yeo" saad nito.

Sabay kaming nanghina ni Mama Gabb because for Joaquin, broken leg means saying goodbye in playing pro basketball forever. Napatutop ako ng bibig he will really be heartbroken pag nalaman niya for now I pray na gumising muna siya. Please Quin, wake up, pipi kong usal.

"Anak be strong" bulong ng Daddy ko habang inaalalayan ako.

Nanghihina akong napaupo ulit sa waiting chair "Dad kailan ko kaya puwedeng makita si Quin?" Parang bata kong tanong

"Pag pinayagan tayo, I think sa ngayon kailangan muna siyang makasama ng parents niya. Umuwi muna tayong lahat para mag pahinga" annunsyo ni Daddy.

"Ty I reserve suites sa Hotel you guys stay there para makapagpahinga and be closer." Tito Ryan stated, bakas sa guwapo niyang mukha ang stress na dulot nitong trahedya.

Tumango si Daddy inakay kaming lahat. My Mom decided to stay with my Mama Gabbi na on the verge of mentral break down, I myself wanted to stay as well baka sakaling magising siya at hanapin niya ako but the parents says na mag pahinga muna ako. Promise bukas babalik ako.

We arrived in the hotel and I decided to open my phone. Nakarating na sa social media ang aksidenteng nangyari kay Primo. Many speculate na sinadya niyang ibangga ang sasakyan niya sa concrete barrier some think na aksidente. I stop reading all the nonsense, binuksan ko nalang mga unread messages ko.

From: Mimi

Lex is it true? Naaksidente daw si Pree? How is he?

From BastiLove:

I love you, i'm just here if you need me

I ignore other messages and video call Basti instead.

"Love.." bungad niya

"Basti..." nanghihinang tawag ko

"You okay" nag aalang tanong niya

"No" I whisper.

"Where are you?" He asked

"We are here in Yeo's main hotel near the hospital" saad ko

"Hold on, I will be there at 20... no no make it 10 I will be there at 10" assurance niya.

"Hurry" I pleaded.

Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal na nakatulala sa kawalan reminiscing Joaquin and I's fondess memories.

"Love...." I snapped in my reverie and look for the source of his voice.

"Sebastian..."I call out as he closes our gap and envelop me with his warm embrace. His warmth is like a key to my tear gate because when we did hugged I burst out crying. I cried for all the the bad things that had happen, I cried for all the time that I miss in cherishing the people that is most important to me, I cried because for once I've chosen me in the expense of other people's sanity and chaos happen and lastly I cried for all the broken promises that I had made as I hope that I will be given another chance to fix it all. Habang tahimik lang akong dinamayan ni Basti, ang bawat hagod niya sa aking buhok ang nag sisilbing gamot sa aking sugatang puso..