Dear Sebastian

chapter twenty nine

Dear Sebastian,

Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened let us make this easy.

Love
Alex

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Reset of Life
Alex

I was sitting alone in the dim lighted sofa when he arrived it was around eleven few minutes away from midnight

"Lex? Gising ka pa?" Bungad niya "sorry I was late nag ka delayed kasi ng flight air traffic late nakami nakaalis sa Changi" explain niya.

"Kumain ka na?" Tanong ko

"Yes may food sa plane, kaw kumain ka na? How was Kenzo?" Small talk niya as he sit beside me and loosen his tie.

"Okay naman wala masyadong ginagawa sa office eh wala ka naman" I exhale.

"Well I think this talk is long over due" he smile timidly "what happen yesterday.." he trail

"Is a mistake" kabado akong ngumiti he just look at me with no reaction "hindi na dapat nauulit yun, it is been a while you know it was just a spur of a momemt sorry nakalimot din ako" litanya ko.

"Okayyyy" he say calmly prolonging the last syllable.

I exhale "let's treat this situation like adults do, I am willing to have co-parenting status in raising our son Basti" I felt like crying pero pinigilan ko kailangan kong maging matapang "regarding our living situation.." this time I trail.

"It is not negotiable my son shall live with me, regardless if you wanted to live here or not so if you want to live with your son you have no choice but to live under my roof" firm niyang saad. This time I saw the ruthless businessman who would do everything to get what he want and a part of me swells with pride.

"Okay fine, as long as it will not be a problem to you or your girlfriend or wife in the future I am fine with that but let us negotiate pag pareho na tayong may pamilya" I croak on the last part sumisikip ang dibdib ko knowing someday he will have his own family with Claudette, Kenzo can have half siblings sa scenario na yun ako lang naman ang etchapwera because regardless Ken will forever be part of Sebastian's life and I will just be on the sideline, but this time I refuse to be the loser who has nothing, I will thrive and bounce back.

"Is that all? Tiim bagang tanong niya.

"So far yes, let us re-negotiate kapag may changes" I concede wala na rin akong energy "let us give this a rest alam ko pagod ka na rin" capping our day to end.

Tumango siya at diretsong pumasok sa kanyang kuwarto and left me alone sa madilim na sala. I heard his door shut kasabay ng pagpatak ng luha ko. In darkness I cried, holding my chest as way of soothing my broken heart. My life use to be ideal, cheery and full of dreams, ten years ago if you tell me na I will end up to be this miserable I will just laugh in your face. But here I am crying in the darkness pilit na binubuo ang durog kong pagkatao.

The next morning maaga akong gumising I took a quick shower at pumasok ako sa room ni Ken to check on him. I saw my reflection in the mirror along the wall on my way to my son's roon. Maga ang mga mata ko at halatang walang tulog, how can I explain this to Basti pag nagkita kami but pag dating sa dining area, he was not there. Sabi ng maid may breakfast meeting daw nauna na maybe I should thank my lucky star.

Ken and I eat in silence and I help his yaya to prep him for school, when his driver and bodyguard came up he bid his good bye and kiss me as I said my see you later usual lines. After that eh nag ayos nako papuntang opisina.

When I arrive I saw my table beside Rina's parang piniga ang puso ko but I guess this is for the best.

"Hi Rina" Bati ko.