Dear Sebastian

chapter four

Dear Sebastian

Please not now, I am vulnerable, too much that my heart wanted to let go and let life wind take it and scream c'est la vie.

Love,
Alex

The Joaquin Primo Diaz Yeo
Alex

Joaquin Primo is my constant. He is someone that I had since the moment that I was born until now. It is our family's joke that I am his puppy because I use to follow him around wherever he goes. All our lives he adjusted everything that he do for me, he only played the games that I can also participate and do the things that I am allowed to do well until basketball. I know that sport serve as his breathing ground. Away from me, away from our family and I am so engross of worshipping the ground that he is walking on that I never realize that I suffocate him until it was too late.

I can never remember when is the time that I fall in love with Quin. All I know is that he is mine and someday we will spend our lives forever. He is a good person, and he will be forever my life's constant that I am sure. I read this somewhere but I can't remember but this quote remind me of today, and it says if you Love someone let him grow, when he choose you after he did it means it is for keeps forever.

I slept knowing from my heart that tomorrow I will let Joaquin breath, because tomorrow I will let him fly.

Morning After...

I woke up late, as I goes down our staircase wearing my swimming outfit in a robe, I went directly towards our Al Fresco dining area and I saw him, eating together with our entire family, I forgot that this weekend is schedule for the Sorianos. It is our family's tradition to eat breakfast by schedule every weekend and next week we will be with the Yeos .

"Good morning Lexie" bati ni Dad

"Good morning Dad, good morning Fam" I greeted each of them with a kiss on their heads until I reach Joaquin

"Good morning Bi" bati ko and I kissed his head too and he hold my hand.

"Feeling better?" he asked as our entire family listen. I smile and nodded

Tension is palpable our families are like watching a tennis match as they switch their attention to Quin and me simultaneously and patiently waiting.

"Let's talk after you're done eating" I stated.

"Are you not eating breakfast?" Habol niyang tanong.

I smirks "I always never do Quin" I didn't wait for him to answer and I went directly towards our pool to do a lap or two.

When I am almost done with my final lap, someone standing beside the pool ready to give me a towel

"Done?" Bungad niya and I just nodded for answer. Umahon ako and took the towel from his hand. He took another towel and cover my legs nung umupo na kmi sa lounger. I am not a conservative one but I grew up having Quin na nakasunod sa akin na pinalaking gentleman, with him I felt safe sanay na ako sa pagiging protective niya and caring.

"Kamusta?" Umpisa niya

"Long time" I linger my gaze to Quin just to think our years together, he met my stares and it dawn on me that I am his life's nominated girlfriend he was never given a choice and because our Moms do have a dream of becoming one happy big family parang naging matic na kami ang magtutupad noon.

We shared millions of memories, we are present in all the important events in each others life. We celebrated important milestones together too. Sadly we are never given a choice no wonder when he was given a chance he took it one good example is going to a regular highschool that to be homeschooled in Mountainview like the rest of us.