Killer x Reader : Radio Silence

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by aldkjfisesfesa

Thanks for the request Memorimomo!

[Killer x Reader : Radio Silence]

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"I can't just leave," you said, sighing. "It's so much more difficult than that. You've gotta know I've thought about this before."

"Is it really that difficult? All it would take is meeting up on an island and leaving with us. No more staying up until ungodly hours to talk or waiting months just to see each other again. Don't you want that?"

You opened your mouth before closing it again, unsure of how to respond. Of course you did, but you leaving the Heart Pirates was as blasphemous as Killer leaving the Kid Pirates. You licked your lips before responding. "You know I want that, you know I love you. It's just... it really is that difficult. I don't want to leave Trafalgar, but I want to stay with you."

"Who do you care about more?"

"Don't make me do that. I don't want to choose. You'd never choose between me and Kid, please don't make me choose between you and Law."

"I'd choose you every time."

You shut your eyes tight and took a tired, deep breath. Don't guilt me like this... "Then why don't you join me?"

"We both know Trafalgar would never allow it. Besides, you know you could be happier with this freer type of lifestyle. Not trapped underwater all the time in a tiny submarine."

He was right. You'd love to really sail the seas, not travel in them. "It's late. Can't we talk about this another time?"

"You can't stall forever, but if you're tired, you should sleep. Good night, sweetheart."

"Good night... and I'm sorry. I should be able to choose, it's just... I can't."

"I never want you to apologise, alright? Don't feel sorry for something like that. I love you, we'll talk later."

"Love you too."

He hung up, and you held the device in your hand for another moment before placing it on the den den mushi and turning off the light. You fell on your bed and sighed, staring into the darkness above your covers and thinking. Looking at the situation from every angle and realising you were horrified at change. You were content at the moment, so why risk it? You didn't want to put anything on the line. It's not like you weren't risky in general. You could risk a fight with someone twice your size, because at least you could fight back and you could actively work to win. But risking the feeling of simple content was terrifying. It wasn't so easy to just be content and happy.

High risk high rewards, huh?

Maybe it would've been better to take the chance. Because every night after that conversation, you dialed the number and got no response. Which meant one of two things; there was a shipwreck or an incident where the den den mushi died, and there's a new number you had no way of attaining, or something happened to Killer. And every time you were met with silence, you could only hope it wasn't the latter.

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Kinda have a pt 2 planned out but for now, awkward endings and a hint of angst ;>