The Host Guy

33rd Chapter

"O-okay." I answered, stuttering a bit.

"Keep the promise, babe!" He yelled at me, playing with the ends of my hair.

"I will." 

What if he discovers something and hurts Harry? I thought for me. At least one good thing happened, he is leaving and only comes back in a month, some may call me bad person for thinking this, but it's a salvation for me, knowing that I will not have to be with him and touch him makes me cry but of joy and not of disgust. And once in a lifetime, this is right and I'm going to enjoy every hour, minute and second of not being with him. I hope everything changes.

But he will discover everything sooner or later because he has guys spying on me everywhere and that makes my heart jump out of my chest. Who would like this?

I know that he will call me everyday, and he will make clear to ruin my day. And I'm totally sure, he'll know what I do everyday.

(*#*)(*#*)

"I'm so, so sorry, Harry! I just went to the library." I said making an excuse. Harry seemed upset but I couldn't blame him. The fault it's mine, just like always.

And it will always be because I'm not capable of being strong for at least, a day.

"Okay, Emily." He said, getting up from the couch to get his backpack.

"Are you mad at me?" I asked, closing the door and heading to where he was. I noticed he was texting someone, not someone but Amy. I saw her name on his phone, he's talking with her.

What if he doesn't want me anymore?

"I'm not mad," He said, pausing by biting his lip. "I'm just a little sad because I thought I'd wake up to find you in here."

"Sorry, but I had to go there and I thought I would come back soon and I'm really sorry, Harry." I told him, every word seeping out of my mouth one by one so fast because I was on the merge to cry. I was so confused and sick of lying to someone that I like. He doesn't deserve this. And I don't even know why I suggested for us to secretly date because this will cause even more problems.

"It's okay, I'm being a little childish." He kindly wrapped his strong arms around my body. "Apologizes accepted."

"Good, I guess." I laughed, trying not to cry. I am a liar, I don't even deserve this, him or anything. I felt like dead but still alive.

I don't say I'm cheating on him because I don't feel like I am. I am being forced to be with Colton, I'm not with him because I want to, if I was, I would call that cheating but there's no liking in these situation.

"Just look at me, I can't even get angry at you, babe." He said, giving me a kiss on my forehead while he grabbed my head against his chest.

"So, it's getting late, it's better for us to head to school." I said, changing the subject and removing myself from his arms, feeling a certain cold hitting me.

"Oh, by the way, Saturday it's Hannah's dad wedding, right?" Harry asked me when while he was opening the door.

"Yeah, it is! I didn't remember that! I don't have a dress, I need to go buy one, I need to go to the mall!"

"Calm down." He laughed. "Why don't we go there friday?"

"Sounds good." I laughed back. "But I'm already warning you that I spend like seven hours on a mall because I never know what to buy."

"It doesn't matter, if we're going to be together it will be fine. I won't get done of it."

"You have to stop acting like that because it affects my emotions, you know?"

"It's how I am, I can't change."

"I was kidding though, I don't want you to change." I said, getting out of the car.

"I wish I could kiss you right now, babe." He whispered on my ear, and I instantly got goosebumps by hearing his raspy voice saying that.

"I wish I could too but we can't."

"Hey buddies!" I heard Hannah talking. She looked happy, I'm glad she did. Hannah always carries her happiness around and makes sure to put that on people and she does make people feel better.

"Hey, Hannah! How are you?" I asked her, giving her a quick hug just like I always do to greet her.

"Fine, and you guys?"

"Fine." We both said at the same time.

Sometimes I wished I could read what's on Harry's mind because I want to know whether he's really fine when he is with me or if he's just pretending to be.

"I'm so excited to the wedding, do you guys have what to wear already?" Hannah asked. Her eyes were sparkling so much that you could tell she was excited.

"We were actually talking about that, friday we're going to the mall." Harry answered.

"Can I join you, please?" She insisted, making a puppy face to conceive us.

"Of course, girl!" I said.

"What about Liam?" Harry questioned.

"Oh, yeah! I'm going to talk with him." Hannah said.

"Okay, I need to go to my Biology class! See you later, guys." I said, heading myself to where I was supposed to have a hour of Biology. Poor me. My teacher spends most of the time talking about her past and what happened to her on the days back to when she was on college and I don't want to sound mean or anything but I'm here to learn and not to know more about her.

Looking at my watch, I saw that I was already late, so I started running to the 2nd floor, but I soon tripped over someone.

Ugh. Life is against me.

"Oh, sorry, Emily. I was actually looking for you." I soonly got shocked when I heard Colton's voice.

"What are you doing here?" I harshly asked. I couldn't believe he came to my school.

"You forgot one thing at my house."

"What? I brought everything. Now, please go, I'm late for my class." I nervously said, picking up everything from the floor.

"This."

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