The Host Guy

32nd Chapter

I remained quite for a short matter of time, just looking at his figure. We both did though. How heartbroken was he? What happened to the madness and anger that he always carries and puts on me?

It was hard to look at him. It was and I didn't know why. Was I feeling bad for him? It just felt as if the world was crashing down around him and all he could do was stand and watch his surrounds.

"What happened, Colton?" I managed to ask, breaking the awkward silence that was between us.

"Come in, please." He said and I did so.

An alcohol smell hung around the place, he has been drinking all of this time. Of course it had to be big deal for all of this because even though Colton it's the way he's, I know he doesn't like to drink.

"So, I think you might wanna talk with me."

"Yeah, I do, Emily."

"Okay."

"I just feel empty, Emily. I feel like the world is about to go down and that I'm going to watch it and do anything. And I don't care if the pain is killing me inside, because pain is just a little thing inside us that grows bigger when our life flies without letting us fly either and I'm sick of falling because no one is there to catch me." He said, between pauses. He was letting the words get out of his mouth without wanting to. But wow, wow, wow. I never knew that's how he felt.

"Colton. Why did you not tell me this sooner? Because if that's the way you feel--"

"Why would I, Em? Why?" He screamed, anger consuming his body. His eyes were red, filled with tears prepared to stream down on his face.

"Because--" I started, but immediately got cut off by him again.

"You don't love me, you don't feel anything from me but disgust."

"Colton, I only feel that because you made me feel that way."

"Ahh." He yelled, sitting on the cold floor. He put his head between his legs and started crying. He probably felt his heart being ripped out of his chest and that made me feel even worse.

"I used to love you, you know." I said, getting up from the couch to approach him. I wasn't afraid of getting closer to him now, perhaps because he showed me his vulnerable side.

"But why can't you love me now?" He harshy asked, facing me with his puffy eyes that had black circles around them, he probably didn't sleep.

"Because my heart is not destined to love yours. But there's a girl out there for you, Colton."

"You don't get it, don't you? I want you, I need you! You and only you." He rapidly said, getting up from the floor.

"But that's the thing, Colton. We don't normally get to choose what we really want. This is how life works. And that's what you have to learn, you're like that because your parents gave you money for everything you ever wanted and now you don't have the eyes to see the true life that is behind everything. And you can't buy love, that's the thing, isn't it?"

"The thing that matters most know is that I'm going to the USA for some business issue with my dad. And I'm not going to be able to see you, touch you, hear your voice and feel you for two weeks."

Was I being a bad person for being happy inside?

This was just the best news that I could receive but he was broken, for him it wasn't the best news. For him this was pretty bad, for him this was like not seeing the loved one because he does love me in a sicky way and that's why it's hurting him so much because after all it's just two weeks, it's not a big deal and if he was normal, he wouldn't be this mess now.

"Please, Emily. Let me just have you one more time before I go. I'm leaving tomorrow."

No, no, no. Not this again.

"Colton," I paused, checking the time on my watch. "My classes are starting in 20 minutes and I have to pass by my house first. "

"But your school it's close."

"Sorry, I can't..."

New Message

From: Harry

Where are you, Em? I just woke up and I looked for you everywhere in the house! We're supposed to go to school together like every other day.

"Just promise me one thing." He said. I could just feel something perverse getting out of his mouth but I tried to stay nice before saying something I would regret.

"Don't think of kissing or doing other things with other guys! You hear me? Because I warned you that you are mine!"

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