I know its been a month since I update BUT I didnt had the time to do so, so im really sorry. And im sorry this has to be so short
“Liam!” I screamed in shock. How dare he?
“Sorry, Em. But I feel like you deserve better, not him.” He said making me even angrier and I wanted him to know that, to know that I don't like anything of what he just said. My eyes flashed heat waves at him, he noticed. “I didn't mean it like that, but I thought you wanted it too-”
“Goodness! Are you bipolar or something?” I interrupted. “Do I look like the kind of girl that wants any guy in the world? Really Liam, don't make this worse.”
“I just-”
“Enough, I don't want to hear your excuses again. I'm leaving. Bye Liam.”
Seriously, did people take the day off to piss the shit out of me? I'm angry. I'm sad. I'm disappointed. I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling. Am I not good enough to live my life happily? Or do the problems always have to come in my way and make me stumble?
I'm done. I hate everything; I'm done with the people around me. I don't like how they make me feel, not anymore anyways.
I'm a cheater, ain't I? I don't want to say I'm. But look at me, I am. Technicaly me and Liam kissed, and obviously I've been in a relationship with another person that it's not Harry. That makes me a cheater. Yeah, it makes. But hey, was it my fault? No, I don't think so. Regardless, it doesn't matter anymore because he doesn't love me. Nothing matters. I'm done of everything.
Every time I try to fight it, I fall. I will never be a good human being, I'm lonely, tired, and weaker than I was before, I'm sinking in my own self. I'm feeling insecure about everything. little and big things. Yet somehow I feel like it's not my fault. I feel like I'm moving in slow motion. Being hopeful and happy? Can't find that anywhere, before who gave me that type of feeling was Harry. Now I know he will not.
Or am I making this a big deal when it's not? Maybe I am. I always do that. Right? I do that because I can't trust anything in my life right now. In one minute. puff, magic trick and I'm happy, another magic trick, something comes and makes me go to my depression status. Actually, I don't understand my own self.
I'm broken.
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