Loving You

Chapter 36 - Dreams

Zahra's PoV:
My heart is beating rapidly, like a drum that's constantly hammering against the wall of my chest and leaving me restless, stealing the air from my lungs and leaving me gasping, feeling ever so suffocated, trapped in my body, trapped in my dark thoughts as I wriggle, tossing and turning until I can feel that I've escaped Ali's arms which was hard cause I was tucked in so comfortably well, my eyes tightly squeezed shut as my mind is engrossed in a terrifying nightmare that's making my body shiver in fear, captivating my being entirely.

*The Nightmare*
I am sat in a bed that's completely unfamiliar and everything, every part of my body feels so weighed down with a sore dull pain pulsing through me consistently , especially in my lower body, in my back that stops me from sitting up no matter how hard I try, my stomach that has cramps so painful it feels like I'm being dealt with constant punches and my legs hurt unbearably. I look like a complete mess.

Suddenly I see the door swing open in a rather dramatic fashion in this neutral sterile room and Ali walks in with a doctor, both of them looking downtrodden. "Ali, why am I here? Is everything ok?" I ask in a panic to which he remains silent, not even looking at me and I get a little nervous, tearing up yet resolute in gulping down my tears.

The doctor harshly throws the file at the foot of the bed and says in an exasperated tone "Well we've conducted some tests Mrs Reza- Ahmadi and we've reached the conclusion that you're so broken and disabled that you will always be completely barren and no dream of yours will ever be fulfilled. All you will be able to do from now on for the rest of your days is lay in bed completely still."

My heart breaks as much as the rest of my body as I hear these words and try to process everything that is happening. Suddenly Ali looks up at me with a frozen, stone cold expression imprinted on his face as he stares up at me, his eyes glaring at me as he clenches his jaw and spits in anger. "I'm leaving you. I can't do this anymore, I can't live like this with you anymore I'm sorry but I'm done." He storms out on me without another word or even a second glance in my direction.

I weep bitterly into my rough hospital pillow as I lay down on this foreign sterile hospital bed in immense pain. I struggle and turn to my side until I feel myself topple off the edge of the bed and fall. I keep falling, screaming silently into an endless dark abyss filled with nothingness. No one hears my screams or cries as an infinite sea of tears fall down my face and there's no one to catch me...

Meanwhile Ali's PoV:
Something doesn't feel right tonight but I don't know what it is but I feel confused, concerned and even more protective than usual. Even though my eyes are closed and I'm in a deep sleep, it's not a peaceful night as I feel something moving on the bed. I try to cuddle my girl closer to me when I suddenly notice she's no longer in my arms and I panic instantly as my eyes flutter open simultaneously just in time to see that her little frame is wriggling and shivering, so close to falling off the bed.

Without another thought I quickly rush to the other side of the bed, standing as close as I can to it and stretch both my arms out whispering "Ya Ali Ya Madher Al Ajaib" softly to soothe the bitter taste of the fear in my mouth, just in time to catch her small, anxious frame in my arms, as she wakes up abruptly, her eyes widen as she sees my face gazing at her with a worrisome expression and her frame is paralysed in shock and fear, her small fists clutching at the material of my clothing as she nestles closer to me and cries for what seems like ages, whispering one sentence over and over again, "please don't leave me," she cries, her each sorrowful sounds piercing my heart until I whisper softly "Oh God, Whats wrong Baby girl, sweetheart are you hurt angel?"