Dua Agha Khan used to be a loud and cheerful girl. Her family referred her as the life of the house, she kept the house alive as her family described, but as said there is a thing called "evileye" that chocked her cheerfulness out of her.From marryi...
A whole week has past by. The day of my engagement has arrived. I can't believe I'm going through this again. Last time it happened I was beyond happy. I was beaming and smiling the whole day. My dress was chosen after days and days of roaming around the markets. My makeup was done to perfection. My hair let loose it fell on my back like caramel waterfall. The peacefulness subsided the slight guilt I felt for manipulating baba to allow me to marry kashan.
But... Now..... Now it all seems like a facade that I have to pull up for the people. MY smile may look real but I know how much my face hurts from smiling so bright. My dress is perfect but I don't know why I feel ugly wearing it. My makeup yet again done to perfection but I can still see the ugly me and not the makeup. My hair is done in an elegant design and left open. All in all I look pretty to the world's eyes but my eyes they can still see the broken,used and ugly girl. The dress and makeup don't make me feel worthy of this all. I fell bad for Raza he doesn't deserve a used and mentally unstable girl like me. He's a nice man I guess well any man other than kashan might be nice but still he's a perfect man, he doesn't deserve a mute girl. I'm not worthy of all this.
My chain of thoughts was broken by Ammi's voice cutting through the tension in the room. "Dua beta they're here are you ready"
I turned around while setting my dupatta over my head. To say I'm nervous enough to pass out would be an understatement. I am shaking if not Visibly then internally.
Ya Allah please let this be a good decision if not for me then for Raza. I can't ruin his life with a mute burden like me. Ya Rabb help me. Ameen
I took a deep breath and then went outside with Ammi. Ami and I descended the stairs and heard chatter voices coming from the drawing room. Ammi helped me with my maxi. I was a light pink maxi with golden stone work on top till my waist then less heavy in the bottom. I stopped outside the drawing room and again took a deep breath and nodded for Ammi to proceed.
I went inside the chit chat suddenly stopped and the room fell into complete silence. I didn't dare to look up my gaze fixated on the wooden floor. Ammi took me near one of the double sitter sofa. I could see a man's feet I guess they're Raza's feet I don't know. I looked up only to find myself few feet away from Raza I feel nervous, scared but weirdly I feel..... Protected. As if the place I'm standing right now. Next to him is my rightful place, I never felt like this with kashan even when I married him with my own consent. I look into his eyes another mistake I shouldn't have done because the more I look the more I drown in the endless pools of his blue and green earthly orbs. A few seconds later I realize I'm staring and look away I could feel the warmth spread on my cheek.
The fact that I hate it when I blush because he used to love seeing me blush with embarrassment. I then look towards uncle Azan and the rest of the guest and smiled slightly as a sign of acknowledgement from me. They all return the smile with their own. Ammi makes me sit next to Raza. The time is getting closer and closer I can feel my fingers getting cold and shaking because of extreme nervousness. I sit there staring at my hands that rest in my lap. I could feel myself stiffening when Ammi handed me the ring to put it on Raza's finger.
I feel Ammi nudging my side I look at her then she signals me to put the ring on his finger. I turn towards him and see his hand extended I hastily put the ring on.
After that Raza again extends his hand this to put the ring on my finger. My breathing was getting heavier and heavier by every passing second. I shakily put my hand in his big and warm one. My hand feels so right in his but as soon as he puts the ring on I jerk my hand away from his. I look up to Ammi and silently plead her to let me go because if she doesn't I'll probably faint. I haven't even had the courage to look at the ring that now sits on my ring finger. I just want to leave. To get lost somewhere in the woods. I just want to get out of this tensed atmosphere. Ammi didn't take the hint so I texted bhai instead.
"Bhai please ask Ammi to take me to my room I feel suffocated. Please"
Bhai looked at me and then to Ammi. He whispered it to Ammi that I want to leave and ammi did as told.
"I guess now that the engagement is done. Why not we all take rest before dinner.. Hm?" Ammi asked.
"I guess that's good enough. Even I'm quite tired since I came straight from office." I heard Raza's deep and manly voice pierce through the air.
"Well then why don't we freshen up or maybe take a nap as well." Baba said.
"Dua." Baba called me. I looked up and saw him looking at me expectantly.
"Why don't you show Raza to one of the guest rooms in your portion?" Baba asked. Why can't universe be with me for once. I looked at Ammi for any kind of help but even I know that most of the guest rooms at the bottom and first floor are under renovation. When Ammi couldn't do anything I nodded and stood up to guide Raza upstairs. As much as I like flaunting my portion I don't want him near me. I don't know I feel scared yet protected with him. He silently followed me upstairs. Not even a single word left his mouth. Good for me I guess. We reached my floor and I showed him the guest room he could stay in. He was about to say something but I left without hearing what he had to say......
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