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seventeen

for past couple days it's been quiet. harry and zayn has not spoken to each other since their fight at the skating rink. they have finally taken the advice to take some time for themselves, to think and just have a much needed break from one another.

them being together so much, is mainly the reason why they get on each others nerves so much. every couple needs that time to themselves to just recuperate, and get their thoughts and feelings sorted out. it is important to have time to yourself, which is something the two don't do a lot of. they believe in spending all their time together, so much that they don't really know how to spend their time away from one another, or with other people.

that's kind of where that jealous and possessive behavior comes in at. which, also leads into the trust issues. this is what they need, and more. it's been about three days of them avoiding one another at all costs. harry was embarrassed at zayn's crazy behavior, but he was appalled at his own.

zayn was a little out of hand, but so was he, he shouldn't have slapped zayn. but zayn was pushed too far and harry couldn't stop himself, his body just reacted. he doesn't even know what happened, it all took play so quickly and his brain couldn't process it at the time. everything was so good that day, and one small gesture just set off a chain of reactions.

the next couple days, they avoided one another at school and anywhere else. harry, louis, and niall sat on the other side of the cafeteria as far away as they could get. zayn and harry didn't talk in any of the classes they shared together, no phone calls or texts were exchanged. it had just be tense week.

harry got distracted in class thinking so much and stayed quiet most of the time. louis' been doing his best to keep harry's mind busy and give him company. so that was a big help.

"you coming over after school?" louis asks after they walk out of the last class until free period was over. harry pushes his hair back.

"don't i always?" harry replies, as they stop in front of his locker and he twists the combination in on his lock. louis leans against the lockers, shrugging.

"lately yeah, but i was just making sure, didn't know if you decided to do other things." louis says.

"other things like what?" harry asked, narrowing his eyes at louis.

"like make up with the ass hat."

"nope, i'm not." harry says popping the 'p' as he fake smiles and shoves a book in his locker.

"good, don't give in." louis says.

"i don't need your advice." harry mumbles. louis shrugs and leans up slightly before catching sight of something.

"speaking of the devil, here he comes." louis tells harry, tapping his arm. harry turns his head to see zayn walking towards them. harry rolls his eyes, turning his head. a few seconds later he feels a presence behind him.

"can we talk?"

"that's my cue, see you later h." louis says as he walks away room the two not wanting anything to do with that conversation. harry doesn't turn around, just keeps moving things around in his locker, pretending to organize.

"what?" harry mumbles.

"can we please talk?" zayn asked again. harry sighs, closing his locker and turning around. he looks up at zayn who's staring at him, one hand resting on the locker slightly next to harry's head.

"about what?" harry asked, obviously already knowing what zayn meant.

"you know what." zayn says.

"nothing to talk about." harry says giving zayn a bore look.

"harry, please."

"fine." harry smacks his teeth. zayn grabs harry's hand and pulls him towards the courtyard. they sit down on the bench a few inches away from one another. harry stays quiet, waiting for zayn to speak first.

"i want to apologize for my behavior last week, i realize was way out of line and-" zayn was cut off by harry.

"yeah, you were way fucking out of line. i just don't get it zayn, one minute you want me to get off your back because i'm too clingy, tell me to go make friends and the second i do as you say, it's a problem for you. fuck, it's not even okay for me to talk to another human male, it's not like i'm gonna fuck every guy who looks at me. i have -"

zayn sighs, waiting for harry to finish yelling at him. he was used to this already, at times when harry rambled, on and on and on, so he just didn't say anything whenever he did and just waited.

"-know what to do at this point." harry finished, stressfully. zayn nods in understanding, but he grabs harry's hands.

"i know h, i know i overreacted, and i should have handled the situation better." zayn starts, squeezing harry's hands slightly when he tries to pull away. "i know it's okay to talk to other people and be friends with other guys, i just get so jealous sometimes."

"i know you do, so do i, but you completely crossed the line. i did too, for slapping you, but that was only because you wouldn't let me go after i asked you to. you were worrying me." harry admitted.

"i'm really sorry, i shouldn't have done that. i would never hurt you."

"yeah, but zayn, i'm scared that one day it'll get to the point where we're physically hurting one another... i don't want that." harry replies, looking dejected now.

"it won't."

"how do you know that?" harry asked.

"because, i would never hit you."

"but i hit you."

"i provoked you."

"it doesn't matter, couples shouldn't hit their significant other. it's wrong." harry huffs, pulling away from zayn to put his face in his hits. his body quivers slightly, and zayn moves closer, wrapping his arms around harry, pulling him close. "i'm sorry i hit you." harry mumbles into his hands.

"it's okay, it didn't even hurt, you hit like a-"

"zayn, i'm serious."

"okay, okay, it's really fine h. i deserved it for being a controlling asshole. you were giving me time to hang out with my friends like i always ask you to do and i acted like a complete jerk. but, i apologize for my behavior and i hope you can forgive me. i missed you." zayn says truthfully. harry sighs softly, but doesn't say anything for a moment. zayn bites his lip, wondering if harry's silence meant that he didn't want to talk just yet or they needed more time apart. honestly, zayn missed harry only after a few days of no words being exchanged between the two of them, and he fucked up the worst he ever had, he was just hoping to redeem himself. if harry would allow it.

"i love you zayn, but i think more time apart will be healthy for us." harry says slowly. zayn, of course is dejected, but he understands where harry is coming from. their tempers towards one another have been explosive lately and he didn't blame harry for wanting to be away from that kinda stress, zayn needed it too. as much as he missed harry, maybe more time away from one another will help their relationship a little.

"i understand, h." zayn says, pulling away from him. harry nods and gives zayn a sad smile, before hesitantly, grabbing his bagand slowly standing up.

"see you." harry whispers, before turning and walking away. zayn watches him until he disappears through the doors.

zayn really does hate himself for this.

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