lisp [e. kaspbrak]

ten

start song— 3am by finding hope

the two teens had fallen asleep on top of koles roof. eddie laying half way on top of kole. he was keeping her warm without knowing so. the two talked for hours before finally falling asleep. good thing they didn't have school.

kole stirred in her sleep. changing potions to try to get comfortable. ultimately failing. she woke up.

the universe around her was black. no stars shined in the sky. and the moon hid behind a cloud. yet her world was filled with color. pinks, blues, yellows and lilac. pastels.

kole smiled as she played gently with the boys hair. he was right. the two were only meant to be partners. though they turned into more. kole never thought that before highschool ended that she would actually have friends. or that a boy would be sleeping next to her.

she liked eddie. that was for sure. she liked his personality. the way he dressed. she liked the energy he gave off. she liked his clumsiness, and his relationship with his friends. she liked his eyes, and the way he flamed red when he was embarrassed. kole liked everything about the sleeping boy. kole liked eddie.

eddie tugged kole closer to him in his sleep, his skin was colder than ice. kole managed to get closer, wrapping her arms around him.

she pondered all of the ways she could possible mess up her friendship with eddie. he had told her earlier that he didn't care if he got hurt by her. kole did though. as night creeped deeper and deeper, koles mind got darker.

she made a promise to herself that night. she was not going to hurt this boy. even if it meant pushing the feelings she was feeling aside. keeping them hidden. forever.

kole was not one to mess with feelings. hers or other peoples. but kole also wore a unwelcoming vibe. if she didn't like you, she would let you know. she was scary. she was dark and twisted. some classified kole as a bitch. simply because she showed that she didn't give a fuck. or as a freak. though she couldn't control her speech impediment.

all of these things made kole who she was. she couldn't help it. she couldn't change. no matter how hard she tried.kole as a whole didn't match who she wanted to be. but she was stuck with who she was.

she wanted to be better. she wanted to like eddie. soft and sweet. care free, nice and good. she didn't want to lisp anymore. she didn't want to be a label. kole just wanted to be kole.

kole knew something. she knew she couldn't let eddie go. because eddie could help her change. help her be who she wanted to be. she would do whatever it took to be that girl.

she would help eddie change if he would help her.