I Was Loved | Jordi GDL

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I was staring at my phone intently. I read Jordi's message but I don't reply, I don't know what to say either.

"i love you, too" I read and then my tears started falling.

This is their first win in this season. First game of the second round. I am happy for them. I am so proud of him. Masaya ako para sakanila, pero para sa sarili ko... Hindi.

He's making it hard for me to leave. I don't wanna do this but I know that I should. My Daddy want me abroad, he said that it's for me, for my own good, and I know he's right.

"Jianna..." Si Mommy iyon.

"Can we move our flight?" I cried.

"We know how much you like Jordi, and we're not against that. But Jianna, if you're being like this just because of him, siguro tama nga na doon ka muna sa abroad." She said.

"This is not because of him!"

"Then what is it?" Malumanay na tanong ni Mommy, but I know, she's right. I don't want to leave, because I'm scared Jordi might find another girl that will love him and will not leave him.

"Did you tell him about this?" Tanong ulit ni Mommy nang hindi ako sumagot.

I shook my head, "No."

"Why?" Her forehead creased.

"B-baka sabihin niya ny reason's too shallow. Atsaka, for what? Hindi naman na ako babalik, 'di ba?" I wiped my tears.

"You're still young. You'll get over him, he'll get over you." She told me.

"You think I will?" I asked her and then tears pooled my eyes again. Maybe, I will get over him. Kapag wala na ako. I imagined him, going out with another girl, going to their house late at night just to talk to, treating her like a princess. Fuck, I stabbed my heart.

"You said he'll just say that your reason for going abroad is too shallow. Are you sure he's gonna say that? He's not that kind of man, Jianna. He was raised well by his parents, I can say that. He'll understand that for sure," She explained. "And darling, your reason's not shallow, for God's sake."

I smiled bitterly. Bakit ko pa sasabihin? Babalik ba ako? I hope so. Kasi gaya ng sinabi ko kanina, babalikan ko siya. Kapag pwede na, kapag pwede pa.

He flooded me with messages.

"I'm sorry," I typed and then erased it again.

I'm sorry? The heck. I know he's mad at me already.

"i'm still here outside" Sabi niya, I cried when I read that. He didn't left, he waited for me there. He thought I was still there.

"Mommy... Bumalik muna tayo." I sobbed. Mommy looked at me with her eyes full of pity.

"Nandoon pa siya, Mommy. Hinihintay niya ako!" I cried harder but Mommy was just looking at me.

"Sige na, Mommy... Kahit saglit lang. I just wanna see him. Mommy..."

"Stop it, Jianna! Look at yourself! Ang payat-payat mo na! Maawa ka naman sa sarili mo!" Mommy cried with me.