Live and let die without you (Guns N Roses x Motley Crue Fanfic)

Chapter 16

"Could you stop?" I grimaced, crossing my arms as I backed up.

"No. Can you?" He glares, starting to get pissed.

"You are just gonna cause more problems between us and the others." I try to reason.

"This isn't how it's supposed to be." He mutters. Looking at me as if I'll change my mind.

"I'm happy."

He chuckled. "Happy?"

"Yeah, happy."

"I didn't know crying yourself to sleep every night was happiness. Shit then I never want to be happy."

"You're delusional. Since when have I done that?"

"Oh so then you are just fine with it?"

"Fine with what?"

"Don't play dumb. You act like I don't see what he's doing? I see it every fucking night!"

"Oh yeah? You think you'd be any different? You are telling me that you would turn down every girl who tried to sleep with you?"

"At least I would try."

I scoffed. "I want neither of you."

"Then who do you want, huh? Do you want Tommy or Slash or Izzy, or or maybe even Mick huh?" He kinda chuckled.

"I want none of you."

"Then who?"

"I want myself."

Sighing, he finally gave up.

"Are you just gonna stay with him?"

"I don't care at this point. I don't have the energy to argue with him to only make up with him again. We are basically fucking buddies with a little bit more claim over others."

"Have you been loyal to him?" He asks.

I shook my head.

"Would you cheat on me?"

"You should know the answer to that."

"Then why can't you be with me?"

"Because I shouldn't have to be hurt by everyone all the time. I shouldn't have to deal with it at all."

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"Hey baby" Axl smiled kissing me on the cheek.

"Hey" I smile back.

"We are free Saturday. I was thinking we could go on a little day date." I nodded with a wide grin on my face. We are toxic but at little moments like this you can't help but find yourself to love him.

It does hurt. But I hurt him to. Although I know he cheats on me, I never see it. There has been so many times where he has came in our hotel room to find a guy wearing little to nothing to the point where he decided to stay on the tour bus. So many nights weve cried ourselves to sleep.

I want to change for him and I know he'll change for me.

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Today was the day and I'm getting ready. My hair curled, make up done. I decided to dress a little out of my comfort zone and wore a red, short, flowey dress.

"You look so pretty" he smiles.

"You don't look too bad yourself." I smiled back. I'm excited. So so excited and I don't know why. We haven't had an alone day since back at the house. I feel happy.