Abusive Four

Chap 8

I feel the comfy blanket on top of me .This always happens after a beating

Four wouldn't want to see a disgusting me mess like me and he would throw my to bed like some kind of dog

I sigh after what seems like hours I decided to get up since my stomachs is growling and I haven't ate yesterday

I go to the washroom and look at the mirror
"Of god.." I mutter ..I pale and I still have deep cuts and bruises

I hold back tears and go down stairs fortunately four isn't here or he would have killed me for eating

After eating some oatmeal I wander the house

This.is.too.much
I never even thought of committing suicide I never knew I would be this weak

I decided to walk outside in the neighbourhood due to all the thoughts in my head they frighten me

I put on some make up to cover the cuts and bruises on my face and I wear a jacket to cover my arms

I walk around until I spot the usual routes
Our neighbourhood has an old large tree that sits in the middle of a wide area

A lot of business men wanted to cut the tree to make roads and
houses but many people protested saying that tree was special

So now there is 2 roads on each side of the tree I always take valley street but today I chose rain street

It's a new place I thought, it's lined up with pretty red bricked houses and they are lined simply together

I walk past a house with a bunch of kids playing tag while there mother is scolding them because of the noise
I smile.

It's been so long since I have seen things that make me smile
Anger rushes through me when I realize that four was the one that made me isolated from the world

All this time crying I could have been having fun with my teenage years

I spot a park bench that faces a playground for kids and I decided to sit down and enjoy the fresh air

It's been a while and just as I was about to get up I see 3 figures walk into the park

I see its a mother and a father and a small little child that are heading to the playground

I smile they are far away but I hear the child Wanting to go to the swings

I finally decided it's time to go and I decided to walk past the parents and got through the bench

The sun is up and the clouds are visible and before I know it I'm facing the door fence

I look back one more time and then I freeze

Oh.my.god

I finally get to see the parents faces

It's Christina and will

(I'm being nice therefore I didn't kill will😊)

I should be happy but instead it's like someone poured a big Ice bucket on my head

I'm a coward I know that but I can't help it I open the fence and run to the normal dull brown house

I open the door and collapse on my bed

How? Does that mean Christina is living right next to me?

What happened to her?
Christina was my best friend and after Marlene and uriah died she felt like she wanted a place where she can forget the past

Well guess what Christina?
U didn't just forget the past but U hurt the people that were with U

I remember the day Christina left without a word

FLASHBACK:

It was a normal Wednesday and we were getting ready for Will's birthday so me and Christina were gushing over clothes

"omfg this is so cute!" Christina exclaims while holding a REALLY short Red dress
"Well I'm sure Will would like it" I say sarcastically
"Uhm DAAA? Like OFCOURSE he would "

We reached the party and we were getting ready four and I were talking like we actually love each other
That's when he wasn't like a dynamite that explodes on me if I get too close

We were dancing and having fun until someone suggested we play a good ol' game of Candor or dauntless

The game was good and then it came to the subject of friends and that's when Christina became emotional

"Excuse me " she whispers and leaves
After a while Will gets worried and follows her

After the party continued ZEKE runs to us and scream
"Will and Christina left"
And that's was the last I heard of them

PRESENT:
I'm on the bed unable to control the tears

What would she think?
Should I go talk to her?
Why did she leave us without a word?

I sigh this is too much

Maybe ..just maybe she might help me escape hell