"I don't want to say this because I have never ever said this my entire life. Pero what the hell... I think I might give US a shot..."
~MIKA
Wait.. What?.. Did I just say that? Sinabi ko ba out loud? F!
What the hell is happening to me? Teka, ako ba talaga ito? Susugal ba talaga ako? Shit! I have never been this vulnerable. Ano bang epekto nitong lalaking ito saken? Fudge!
After realizing na lumabas na sa bibig ko ang dapat naman ay nasa isip ko lang, hindi ko alam kung titignan ko ba si Ravena o hindi. Paano kung pinagtritrip-an lang pala niya ako? Paano kung pag tingin ko sa kanya, makita kong pinagtatawanan lang niya ako. Paano kung pagtingin ko sa kanya, hindi ko makita ang sincerity na nakita ko kahapon?
Puro nalang paano..
Nilakasan ko ang loob ko at dahan dahan ko siyang nilingon. Unti unti ko siyang tinignan, fearing na baka makita ko ang pinaka kinatatakutan kong hitsura.. ang hitsura ko kapag nang goo-goodtime ako ng lalaki.
I guees i am afraid of my own ghost...
When I looked at him.. all I saw was his smile... his sincere smile..
~KIEFER
Teka, ano ulit sinabi niya? Muntik na ako mabilaukan sa binitawan niyang yun ah. Akala ko ako lang ang puro banat. Nagulat ako sa banat ni Mika na yun.
Tama ba yung narinig ko? Bibigyan niya KAMI ng chance?
Wait, parang ayaw pa magsink in ng mga sinabi niya. I swear bumagal ang pagpapatakbo ko ng sasakyan. I was waiting for her to look at me. Hinihintay ko talaga na tingnan niya ako. gusto kong makita niya mula sa mukha ko na i am dead serious. Gusto kong makita niya na hindi play time ang gusto ko. Sabihin nang mabilis lahat ng ito, pero I have never been this sure of a girl and a relationship in my entire life.
I know nagaalangan siyang humarap sa akin. Sino bang hindi magdadalawang isip kapag nagbitaw ka ng ganoong salita, pero I can not really explain what I felt when I heard her say those words. Parang this is really a start of something special.
Nang nakita kong lingunin niya ako, I saw relief when she saw my face.
"You just don't know how you have made me happy.. and I mean HAPPY happy. You'll never regret this Mika." by the time I am saying this, nakahinto na ako sa gitna ng kalsada. May mangilan ngilan nang lumalampas sa sasakyan ko, but I am not causing any traffic. Ang aga pa at wala pa naman gaanong sasakyan sa paligid.
"Ok, ok. Pero please be patient with me. I don't know anything about this relationship thing. I really do not have any clue about this... THING" Mika said. Now she is looking outside her window. Inalis na ang tingin sa akin habang sinasabe ko sa kanya kung gaano niya ako napasaya.
"Didn't you know na PATIENCE is my middle name?" and I laughed, hoping she will laugh with me para ma ease ang tension building up inside the car.
"Yeah right Ravena. I guess you really do not fully know me yet."
"And that's what I intend to do Mika. To know you fully and really well." I said with utmost sincerity
"O sige na. Halika na. Baka malate pa ako. Drive na po sir."
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Usually, it would take me 45 minutes to drive from where we suddenly stopped to taft, but I guess adrenaline kicked in and it took us just 30 minute to get there. May 20 minutes pa siyang pasobra para makapunta sa clinic.
