How to not mess this up #malec fanfiction

The forbidden words

Magnus was pacing in his apartment with a glass of whisky in his hand. He glanced at the clock while turning around, tracing his steps for the millionth time, and he realized it was 12pm and he had been doing this for 2 hours. In between pacing he had checked his phone for a thousand times, only to find Cat's worrying messages, and making himself a whisky neat. It must've been his 3rd glass when his phone got an alert and he picked it up.

It was Isabelle. 

"Hey, Magnus. I got ur nr from Alec's phone. Listen, is everything alright? 'cause he's acting so weird, like even for a drunk dude...he's practically crying in my lap rn. What happened with u two? -Izzy"

Magnus let out a strangled laugh when he read the message. So Alec was not so happy right now. Well, good. He was being a dick anyway. But Magnus couldn't help but worry about him. He shook his head. Alec's siblings were with him. He could do whatever he wanted. Magnus sighed and tried to distract his worried mind by watching the TV. A rerun of Game of Thrones was on, so he made another drink and sat down on the sofa. At 1.30 he looked through his phone. When he was scrolling down instagram, there was a picture posted by Alec. It was of him, Jace and Isabelle, and some redhead Magnus didn't recognize. And another guy. He had piercing green eyes and had light brown hair and a nosering. And he was holding his hand around Alec.

The caption said "A night out with these weirdos. xxx". Clearly someone he knew, right? Magnus felt a tinge of jealousy. Then he reasoned with himself. They hadn't said they were in a relationship. And they hadn't actually said they are not to be with other people. Although the thought made Magnus sick and made him want to storm to the club, where ever it was, and take Alexander by the hand, dragging him back to his place.

Catarina's message to the group came shortly after Magnus had restrained himself from storming out and acting like a lunatic.

KittyCat: Did u guys see this?

Rag: Yup

Moody4Eva: What?

*Image sent to The A Team*

TheBiOne: this.

Moody4Eva: Oh shit

Rag: U okay?

TheBiOne: Why wouldn't I be? It's not like they're making out.

Moody4Eva: Not that we know of...

KittyCat: Raph, stfu.

KittyCat: Mags, it's okay to feel a bit, you know, jealous.

TheBiOne: I am not!

TheBiOne: I mean. I'm not. He's got every right to be with whoever he wants. We never DTR'd. Besides, its just a picture of two people. And he's siblings are on it too.

Moody4Eva: If he hurts you, he's head will be cut clean off. By me.

Rags: And me

KittyCat: Guys, ur not murdering Alec.

KittyCat: Maybe just, break his leg or smth...

TheBiOne: You are all too sweet. Thanks, but it's fine. Really. I gotta go to sleep. Night darlings

Mangus set his phone down on the table. Raphael's words had stung. He really didn't know what Alec was doing, even though the picture was just of friends. Probably. Right?

He felt his eyelids getting heavier and heavier. Just as he was about to fall on the couch, too tired to go to bed, there was a thumping sound on his door. Magnus stilled. He glanced at the clock, that showed 1:47. What the hell?

Thumping again. Magnus stood up slowly, unsure as what to do. Did Cat come over? He went to the door and just as he put his hand on the doorknob, a muffle sound on the other side said "Magnussss...." dragging out the 's'. Magnus almost burst out laughing. He knew the voice all too well.

Opening the door, Alec almost fell in, because he had been leaning on it. Magnus caught the stumbling man into his arms and was immediately greeted by the strong smell of alcohol. He scrunched up his nose, but his own breath couldn't have been better, after 3-4 glasses of whiskey.

Alec's eyes were half closed when he slurred "There you are, babe. I knew you would catch me." Magnus smiled and tried to hold him up, but Alec was no small man. Somehow, he got him to the couch, where Alec sat down and immediately fell into a sideways position, half-way laying down. He grinned stupidly, when Magnus took off his jacket and boots. Magnus put them away and then came to Alec. He stood in front of him and then asked "Alexander, what are you doing here? I thought you were out with Jace and Isabelle?"

Alec gave him a weird look and then said "I was. We-were-yes. But then. They left, and I didn't. Want to go h-home. And I wanted to make sure. You are not mad." All this was said between small hiccups. Magnus tried to hide his smile and shook his head. "Alexander, I am not mad. Let me get you some water." Immediately Alec's eyes became clearer and he said, almost shouting "Don't go!"

Magnus stopped in his tracks. He leaned down, brushing away the strand that had fallen onto Alec's face and he said "Okay. I'm here. I'll stay here." He sat down next to him, and Alec immediately came to his side, laying his head on his chest. Magnus slowly ran his fingers through Alec's hair. "I don't know why I acted to stupid." Alec mumbled. Magnus smiled. "You weren't stupid. I mean, I shouldn't have said what I said, not like that. You know I care about you. So much."

Alec mumbled something. Magnus said "What was that?" Alec looked up and stared at him. "I care about you, too. But I want to say something else. Something were not supposed to say. But I really want to." Magnus took a sharp breath. Alec looked at him with his beautiful, deep blue eyes, and it was almost as if there was a spark in them, something that lit up Magnus' heart and set it on fire. Magnus tried saying something but suddenly Alec reached up to him and kissed him.

He tasted of alcohol, sweet and bitter at the same time. It made Magnus' blood boil with excitement and something else. Something he thought he could not feel again, because he had closed himself off to everyone. And here he was, Alexander Lightwood, drunk to the point of passing out on his couch, kissing him sloppily, and it was perfect. Magnus felt like there were fireworks and hellfire all at the same time. Heaven and hell both.

Alec pulled away and then he closed his eyes again, drifting into a deep sleep. Magnus held him, stroking his hair. It was so quiet. He could hear Alec's slow breaths and his heart fluttered when Alec scrunched up his nose in his sleep, looking cute as ever.

Magnus leaned down slowly, kissing his cheek. With his heart beating loudly in his chest, he whispered "Alexander Lightwood, I am falling for you."

A few minutes later, sleep took him as well and all his worries about the morning after floated somewhere into oblivion.