Rejected By the Alpha (On Hold)

Chapter 18

Skyler's POV :

" Are we there yet?" I asked. Again.

"You've asked that like twenty times Sky! We're obviously not there yet! If we were there, the damn car would be parked," Blake was obviously beginning to get fed up with me constantly asking him.

"Seventeen, but who's counting? Not me," I said, smirking.

At that, he growled, but said nothing. I decided the ride was too silent, so I hooked my phone up to the radio and blasted my music. Setting Yourself Up For Sarcasm by Get Scared blared through the speakers and I began singing along, not caring that I couldn't sing to save my life.

"If this is love, I don't wanna be hanging by the neck, before an audience of death!" I sang the last line of the song. I looked over to see Blake staring at me. "Blake, I know I'm an awful singer but you don't need to stare at me like that."

"Oh, it's not that. Not even close. You're a great singer. I was a bit shocked honestly. No offense," he said when he saw me glaring at the last part. "I honestly didn't expect you to listen to that music."

"Well, them and a bunch of other bands like them were there when you and all the others weren't. They saved my life. I'd probably be long gone if it weren't for music," I said, trying not to tear up. I failed miserably.

Blake's POV :

I was most likely freaking Sky out by staring at her as she sang her heart out. I barely even noticed when the song was over.

"Blake, I know I'm an awful singer but you don't need to stare at me like that," she said, looking like she actually believed the nonsense coming out of her mouth.

"Oh, it's not that. Not even close. You're a great singer. I was a bit shocked honestly. No offense," I added hastily, considering the glare she was giving gave me chills. "I honestly didn't expect you to listen to that music."

"Well, them and a bunch of other bands like them were there when you and all the others weren't. They saved my life. I'd probably be long gone if it weren't for music." I could tell she was trying to hold back tears, but still, it wasn't long before one spilled over her eyelid and traced it's way down her smooth skin.

I didn't know what to say to her so I did the first thing I thought of. I unbukled her seat belt and pulled her into my lap, holding her close to me. I felt her fragile body shake with silent tears. There was nothing to be said at the moment, so I just held her as she began to calm down.

Soon enough, she stopped crying, and peered up at me through moist eyelashes, her eyes rimmed red and her face tear stained. "I'm sorry Blake. I'm being ridiculous, I know."

"No you're not Sky. I can tell you've been holding that in for a while, and it's not healthy to keep things bottled up. It's good to get it out," after saying this, a thought came into my head. I looked at Skyler climbing off of me and towards her seat, my palms beginning to sweat, and praying to the Moon Goddess that the answer to my suspicions were wrong.

"Sky?" I questioned.

"Yeah," she replied absentmindedly, wiping the tears away from her face.

"Let me see your arm," I said seriously, and she looked up at me, her face resembling that of a deer caught in headlights.

"Why?" She asked nervously, crossing her arms and hiding her wrists from view.

"Please," I begged, my voice cracking. It was true. She had actually harmed herself. This was all my fault.

"Fine," she said, hesitantly letting me see them. I took off the bracelets she had covering her arms all the way up to her elbows, and felt a piece of me die as I looked at her wrists. There were scars covering them. Most were old and fading, but some looked extremely recent. Too recent.

"Sky?" I asked nervously, my voice wavering. "When was the last time you did this? Please don't lie to me. I can tell that some of these were recent."

"I-the day I got here, when I was showering, I did. I haven't since though. And remember? That was like a week ago (if you comment anything from that damned somg, I'll hunt you down) and I haven't since. I promise I'm not lying," she looked almost scared, like she thought I'd hurt her. I'd never do that. Not again.

"Why would you do that to yourself? You're too amazing to ever have to feel this way," I said, feeling my heart break seeing all of her scars.

"That's the thing. People say I'm beautiful and wonderful, but after being told the opposite my entire childhood, I believed none of it, and still don't. It started when I was young. Thirteen I think. I was in one of the bathrooms and I dropped a perfume bottle that belonged to one of the girls. I tried to pick it up before anyone noticed, and I was trying to be fast, and I accidentally got a cut. I just stared at it and thought. I thought about how many people said they got relief from it, and I thought it could help dull some of my pain. It worked. Eventually, the blades got bigger, the cuts got deeper, and I got addicted. It wasn't even about relief anymore. I hadjust begun doing it without a reason because it had become like a drug to me. One day, almost a month after joining my new pack, I hit a vein. Sapphire found me unconscious in the bathroom surrounded by my own blood, and they luckily managed to save me. I did t touch a blade for a while after that, but I went through a breakup and started again. It wasn't some pity little thing though. I thought he loved me and I caught him with some slut," I growled as she said this, the first noise I made since she began speaking.

"I lost all the self respect I had gained since going there, and took to having alone time with blades again. I was careful this time though. I made sure not to cut too deep, and I kept it a secret. I just kind of stopped once I finally decided I forgave you though. I came here still using my deadly beauty, and then stopped after that night because as much as I tried to convince myself I hadn't forgiven you, I had. I guess it gave me some peace."

"I love you Skyler, and I'd do anything for you. I will always be here, even if you don't want me too. If you ever feel like doing that to yourself again, tell me. I promise I will do everything possible to make you learn to love yourself as much as I love you."

"I love you too," was all she got out before I crashed my lips to hers.

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I lied. The date is next chapter. I just felt like they needed to talk to each other, and you needed to know what happened to Sky. Hope you enjoyed this chapter and I'm sorry for taking 200 years to update. I'm not doing an author spotlight for this chapter, but I will for the next one.

Song of the chapter: Setting Yourself Up For Sarcasm by Get Scared (duh) song off to the side.

See you next time wattpandas! Love ya!