Lights! Camera - ; Tyrus

Scene 8

TJ

It's raining on our first day of set.

We're shooting mostly inside studio's, but sometimes it's outside shots, and, well. It's pure chaos.

Actors and extra's all have to wear these ridiculous puffer jackets that are waterproof over their costumes. The camera crew had to go out and buy these sheet covers for the equipment. Everyone is either super hyper or miserable and wet. I swear some people even went around running through the set in the rain.

And I haven't even done my first scene yet, but it's all gone to wet hell.

But Cyrus likes it.

I think this would honestly be the best day ever for him if I hadn't ruined it the other night with our almost kiss.

Not like I've seen him this morning, but everyone else coming out of the studio seems to be in the best of moods. So I would assume his would be too.

But I ruined it with the almost kiss.

I say it like I knew we were going too. I mean, I'm ninety percent sure he wanted to. And I am one hundred percent sure I did. But there was still that ten percent that through me off. Made me think about the rules, and our history, this job. Everything.

I think my self doubt is what led to our break up in the first place.

But I can't really focus on that when my hair and make up being done. Or when I'm put in my first ever outfit for set. Or when final touch ups are being put in place and my heart is hammering a million miles a minute.

This is really happening.

For publicity, Cyrus designed social media contracts. All I'm suppose to do is post at least one photo on Instagram or two stories a day, and a tweet for publication. On new accounts as well, which have been calculated and tested to see which posts would sell the best.

It's all very... much.

This is really happening though.

Cara, our direction manager taps me with the hand not gripping a clipboard like her life depended on it. "They're ready for you Mr Kippen."

I hope I'm not sweating too much.

I hope a lot of things as my feet take steps towards the first stage. The lights are blinding, and the camera crew are so loud over each other. I take another step.

This is really happening.

And I'm loving it.

Cyrus

This is really happening.

And I don't even care about it.

Really this is TJ Kippen's fault. If he hadn't played his stupid little kissing game with me I would be jumping up and down like Nick, or not stop smiling like the others. But he did, and I can't stop thinking about it.

It is really his fault.

And the thing is. The thing.. is. At that moment, last night, I wanted nothing more than for him to kiss me. Try that for professional. I'm weak.

I guess this means that I still like him.

That's the part that hurts the most. That was stupid and pathetic enough to never get over him, and he'll never like me back.

It could be worse. It could be love.

I should be able to manage if I keep my distance.