The reunion

Ive always loved you

As the footsteps got closer and closer I could feel my throat closing up and I had no idea what I was going to say to him.
Click.
I heard the door unlock.
I heard it creek open.
I heard my deep sigh of regret.
But what I didn't hear was Wills comforting voice I just felt his angry glare burning into my head.
"Um ... hello" I said timidly.
It took him a few seconds to respond but when he did all he muttered angrily " what do you want y/n ".

"I brought you your jacket , you never had it back the other night." I say sadly holding out the jacket.
"Oh great is that it" He said sounding fed up and sarcastic. I just nodded in response knowing that it wasn't it , knowing that there was something else I needed to say.
"Well it was great seeing you as alway" he said sarcastically Beginning to shut the door.
No this is your chance , do it now before it's too late.

I threw my hand on the door holding it open " wait , there's something else"
"What" he said seeming to get more frustrated at my presents.

"Will ......    look would you be willing to talk to me , I think there's a lot we need to    get out" if only I knew how much trouble that simple sentence would cause.
I stared up longingly into his cold eyes that practically screamed get out of my doorway now.

Tears began to build in my eyes but I refused to let them fall I just looked at my feet for a few minutes until he muttered " fine , come in".

I walked in to the familiar apartment sighing deeply as I took a seat on one of the sofas. Will sighed also as he sat down opting for the other chair , I was so scared to look at him I desperately didn't want him to go off again like he did the other night.

The room was silent and it was extremely awkward between us.
I glanced at Will , he was looking at me too.

5 minutes of silence past , nether of us really knowing what to say or do. The to my surprise he was the one to break the silence.

" so do you wanna talk then" he sighed practically rolling his eyes.

" sure" I stuttered painfully sitting up properly to face him he wouldn't look at me now though.

" so .... how's the last few years been for you" he asked not sounding like he actually really cared.

I thought for a moment searching for the right word.
" they've been ...... errr different , how have they been for you?"

"Well in terms of YouTube pretty good , past 3 million subs now".

"And in terms  other then YouTube" I looked cautiously begging for a response on his actual feelings. But he said nothing and the room fell back into an awkward silence once again.

A couple more minutes past....

"I'm sorry for the way I spoke to you the other night" He said breaking the uncomfortable silence again. " you didn't deserve that I was just ... angry , sad , betrayed and maybe I still am."

"I'm so sorry too Will" I whispered as tears began running down my cheeks , I couldn't hide them anymore.

"Can I just ask ..... why did you do it? Why did you break up with me?" He whispered also. His voice broken and upset.

I took a deep breath staring up at the ceiling.

"I just wasn't happy. I hated being without you stilling here waiting for something to happen. I was embarrassed I thought you hated me and just wanted to get read of me. And w-well I , I guess I thought I was holding you back from new people ... better people" I hugged my knees beginning to cry even more , it was all flooding out of me " and we never spoke. I just thought as long as you were with me you would have something drawing you here holding you back and I couldn't do that to you. So I just guess I ended it to try and fix everything.

I looked at Will who had tears in his eyes also. He patted the space next to him and moved over slightly. I slowly got up and sat next to him.

"And did it fix everything or anything at all?"he said looking at me

I shook my head slowly.
"No everything go worse without you. You were the only thing I had holding me together and I guess I just fell apart. I made a mistake but you know I think about that day all the time and I've never regretted anything more in my life.

He slowly and reluctantly put his arm round my shoulders. And we both just cried  silently together.

"Can I ask you something else?" He said turning his head away from me.
"Anything" I replied.

"You never used to tell me that you loved me.
Why?"

The words ripped through me and the only answer I was capable of saying raced out of me with out any control.
"Will I never told you that I loved you because I thought I wasn't good enough and I thought it was only a matter of time before you realised that too."I glanced at him, he was looking into my eyes shaking his head.
"But Will I know what love feels like now, I. I I " I hesitated not sure weather I should say the the truth. But I had to "I love you."
I've always loved you." I said stumbling through tears. I didn't care what he thought or what he'd do I just had to spit out the truth and I finally did.

And he said nothing.
I felt so humiliated, broken , crushed.
I lost myself in tears until I could barely see until Will did something that I never expected.

He kissed me.
He kissed me and it felt so right.
It felt like old times.
And I never wanted to stop
But of corse it did.

As he pulled away I found myself smiling uncontrollably and he was smiling back for the first time in years.

I practically launched myself at him giving him the biggest hug possible crying into his shoulder.
"I missed you"
" I missed you too y/n"

...

Will and I talked for hours about everything every last detail of the last few years and it was the happiest I'd felt in a long time.
Happier then when I was with Alex and George and happier then when I was with Stephen.

It grew late and I grew angry at myself for been so tired. I wanted to stay awake all night with him but I knew that I couldn't.

"It's late I should probably go"
"Wait how did you get here you didn't drive did you?"
I shook my head smiling to myself that he still remembered that about me.
"No , no , no I walked" I said standing up stretching my arms and legs after sitting down for so long.

"Wait no , I'm not letting you walk home now at this time of night it's 1:30 y/n"
"Will it's fine"
"No you can stay here what kind of person would I be to let you go out in that on your own? "
"Really it's fine it's just a bit dark that's all" I said pointing out the window at the busy streets below.

"Well I'm not talking no for an answer" he shrugged.
I giggled at his stupid , smug smirk and sighed in defeat collapsing back into the sofa next to him.

...

We spent the rest of the night watching some weird Netflix show but I wasn't really paying attention I saw just staring at Wills face so thankful that I had taken Stephens advice. Because it was really the best of times for both of us.