THUG IT OUT

25

Esmoni Smith| Pooh
4:23pm

Me and everybody else sat in the waiting room waiting for the doctors to come out to tell us about Moo.

I was scared cause they shot him in the chest and that not ah good place to get shot at and if he dies i'm just.....

Idk but he can't go we have kids together we have a life together, he's my world I can sleep with out him, I need him.

I had dried uo tears all over my face and the babies where asleeo in my arms, after 7 hours of waiting a doctor finally came out.

"Family of Tay'vion Patterson?" The doctor said and we all stepped up, he had a sad look on his face and I almost cried but I kept it together.

"He.....didn't make it" the doctor said and I just broke down into tears cause he can't be, he was mh forever bro like we was suppose to spend the rest of our lives together.

He was suppose to be right here with me, he was suppose to help me he promised me and he broke it, it hurt my heart.

After ah while I ended uo in the bed with the babied fast asleep on my chest but they kept squirming on me.

I guess they new something was wrong, I silently cried for a little until I woke Samoni uo and he started rubbing my face.

Making me stop I put him too sleep, kissing him, going to sleep right after him, cause I knew I was going to need the sleep.

I guess the baby's was going to be the only thing's that helps me sleep at night since Moo isn't here.

In the morning.....

"Mama.....mama......MAMA!" I woke up to taps on my face I looked down at Samoni and Taylor staring at me, then they smiled.

I chuckled at them, I picked them up making them bottles, bathing them, getting them dressed and getting ready myself.

"Dad!" I screamed walking to his room with the babies, "Yes?" He said when I opened his door, "I'm leaving today" I said.

He looked at me getting up, "U sure ur going to be okay by yourself?" He said and I nodded, he shook his head giving me ah hug.

He kissed and hugged the babies and watched me put them in the car and back out the drive way.

By the time we got to the house, the babies where asleep, and the sun was going down I got out, getting the babies walking in the house with them still asleep.

I bath them, putting them to sleep and making there bottles for when they wake up, I walked in me and Moo's room.

I burst into tears, I cried in the corner for ah while until I got up going in the bathroom, I took ah bath and did my hygiene.

I walked out the bathroom and out the room into the guest room, I couldn't sleep in that room, his scent and stuff was there.

It will just make me sadder that I can't be with him, he promised that he would stay and help me and that we would be together forever, but he lied.

I cried almost all night until I got up going into Samoni room getting in the bed that's in his room going to sleep.

When I woke up Samoni and Taylor were in one crib and the cribs Latchet thingy was down, Samoni looked at me and smiled.

I looked at him, "You did that?" I asked and he looked at me shrugging, these kids too fucking smart.

I watched them for a little before getting up, going in the bathroom, I did my hygiene and when I walked out Samoni was crawling around the room with Taylor.

I sat there shicked for ah little while, before going and picking them up, "How?" I said and they just stared at me I shook my head.

Then my phone ranged I put them on the bed turning pn some kidd stuff, and grabbing my phone answering it.

"Hello?" I said into the phone, "Yea it's Q and Glock we was just telling u that we was gon plan the funeral cause I know it's hard" He said into the phone.

"Okay, talk to u later" I said, almost bursting into tears but I gotta keep it together, for my kids sake.

I walked over too Samoni and Taylor getting them ready one at ah time almost crying cause, Moo usually helps me.

I grabbed them taking them too the car, I put them in ths car heading towards chucky cheese to clear my head and focus on the kids cause I know it's going to be hard.

We played there for ah little until Lonnie came over too me, "Damn feel like I see u every damn where" Lonnie said to me.

I chuckled shaking my head, "Yea, whatchu doing here?" I asked and he nodded over to ah birthday party.

I shook my head, "Still not understanding" I said and he chuckled, "I'm here for ah birthday party" He said, making me nod.

"U ah lil retarded" He said shaking his head while laughing, I mugged him, "Bitch imma lil slow not retarded" I said.

He busted out laughing at me and I laughed with him, After ah while I feed the babies Played with them a little bit more and then we left saying bye to Lonnie.

We drove to the house, I got out getting the babies out, When I sat them down, I put them in there cribs then, took ah shower.

After I got out I took them there bath's, giving them ah bottle, and putting them to sleep I walked in to our room and walked back out.

Can't do it, I walked back into Samoni's room and he was walking and Taylor was crawling after him I froze.

He looked at me and dropped like I didn't see him this nigga, I walked over picking him up putting him on the bed.

I picked Taylor up putting her on the bed too laying down with them, they came and snuggled up on me, "Dada?" They said at the same time.

I almosted cried I shook my head no and they started pouting and whining, I picked them up rocking them.

This is really going too be hard, I looked down at them rocking them and there whining started putting them to sleep.

TBC........