Miss Independent

32

Those were the words I saw... pero paano Nina? How can I continue living when the only happiness I have is being taken away from me?

Weirder as it can get, something caught my attention... there's a small knife sa lamesa kung saan nahulog ang notebook.

"Live but then there's something that I can use to end things?"

Naguguluhan na ko.

Kinuha ko yung kutsilyo to think of what it's use can be except from bring a way for me to go to where my sister is.

*blag!

Kokoy's PoV

"Wake up kid"

"Ouch!" Yun na lang naireact ko kasi nakaramdam ako ng pitik sa noo ko tapos naramdaman ko pa sakit ng batok ko

Pagmulat ng mata ko nakita ko yung papa ni Trina

"S-sir!!"

"Get up"

Napatayo naman agad ako. Napalingon ako sa paligid

"N-nasan si mam Teresa?"

"Nasa kwarto"

"Po?"

"I already managed to make her sleep"

Di ko gets. Pero...

"Si Trina?! Sht!"

"Nasa kwarto sa taas, eto susi"

I am still confused pero saka na ko magtatanong ang mahalaga si Trina

Binuksan ko kaagad yung pintuan ng kwarto ni Trina only to see her holding a knife

"Trina!!"

Sumigaw agad ako and when I saw her face she seemed like she just cried.

"Are you trying to kill yourself now?!" Kinuha ko agad yung kutsilyo sa kamay niya at itinapon yon sa malayo

"Kokoy..."

"Nasaktan ka ba?! Ha?!"

Tiningnan ko siya sa mata niya and all she can give me as an answer was a hug.

Hinagod ko yung likod niya and there she started crying.

"Ayoko na Kokoy. Ayoko na..."

"Sshhh. Andito na ko"

She just cried and cried habang yakap yakap ko siya. Geez. If I've been any minute late baka bangkay na ni Trina inabutan ko.

"Tahan na Trina..."

"Kokoy si mama... si mama..."

"Nasa kwarto na daw sabi ng daddy mo"

"Ha? Si dad?"

"Yup he's downstairs. Siya gumising saken before I came in your room."

"K-kamusta pala leeg mo? Ano nangyare sayo?"

"I am also clueless. Tulog lang ako the whole time na andito ka sa kwarto. I guess your father is the only one who can answer things"

"Pero si mama"

"Pinatulog na daw ng daddy mo. I don't know how and why pero yun yung sinabi niya saken kanina"

*knock knock

"Sorry to disturb you guys but can I talk to you?"

"Dad..."

"My dear... I'm sorry if I always have to leave you with everything including this mess"

"What do you mean?"

Trina's PoV

Nakasandal pa rin ako kay Kokoy habang nakaharap kami sa daddy ko. He holds me up, ewan ko nanghihina talaga ako sa nangyare kanina

"The reason I am always on a trip outside the country was because your mom is ill"

"I-ill?"

"Yes. You're mom is mentally ill. Sa tagalog nabaliw ang mommy mo"

"What?!"

"Nung mamatay ang kaisa isang natitirang anak niya kay Fernan hindi na kinaya ng utak niya"

"Wait what?" Kokoy

"You mean we have an older sibling dad??"

"Yes. Nauna siyang mamatay bago ka pa nabuhay sa mundong to, you came in the picture habang hindi pa kami ng mama mo"

"But I thought..."

"All this time na kami ang unang kasal ng mama mo?"

I nodded.

"Pinalabas namin yun pero hindi."

"Why did you have to lie to me??"

"We both thought it's for the better"

"A-anong kinamatay ng kapatid ko?"

"Aksidente din Trina. Kagaya ng kay Nina"

"Pero teka ang gulo pa rin ehh"

"Fernan died kaya kami nagkatuluyan ng mama mo. Or should I say kaya ko pinilit makasama mama mo"

"Accident again?"

"Plane crash"

Oh my gosh

"Akala ko dati okay na mama mo pati yung relasyon namin but no, she still loves Fernan and anything about Fernan is all she lives for"

"Kaya ba ayaw na ayaw niya saken dad?"

"I don't know pero mukhang ikaw yung napagbuntunan niya ng sama ng loob, then Nina died na nagpalala ng sitwasyon"

"So kasalanan ko talaga lahat ng to?"

"No dear, wala kang kasalanan. Kung meron mang may kasalanan dito ako yun hindi ikaw"

"But if I didn't exist in the picture, there would've been less conflicts right?"

"Trina don't say that" Kokoy

"Kasalanan ko pala talaga ehh kaya pala naman hinding hindi niya ako makuhang mahalin. Naging dahilan pa ko ng pagkamatay ng anak niya. Wala talaga ako kwenta"

"Trina anak, unang una hindi ikaw ang may kasalanan. Aksidente ang lahat. Hindi ikaw ang may hawak ng buhay nila. They are destined to live until those points kahit na sa hindi magandang sitwasyon. Pangalawa, even if I had to replay everything, I wouldn't hesitate and I would always be happy that you were brought to us by Him. Ikaw yung regalo niya samen Trina, a precious one"

"Dad... how can I help mama?"

"I went abroad to find medications and treatments for your mom, I always try them with the right prescriptions but I guess longing for 3 of your loved ones is a hard pain to treat, at hanggat di niya nagagawang tulungan ang sarili niya ang magagawa lang natin is to understand"

"Until when dad? Ang hirap"

"Ok lang kung susuko ka na sa mama mo Trina. I totally understand that dahil na din sa naging trato niya sayo, pero sana still find love for her... she needs it"

"Dad hindi ko na alam..."

"Palabasin niyo ko dito!!!!" The door from my mom's room started being banged.

"Nako nagising na. Mabuti pa umuwi ka na muna sa condo mo Trina. Ako na bahala muna dito. Kokoy, please take care of her for me"

"Y-yes sir"

"Thanks. Sige na Trina. It's not yet the right time na magpakita ka sa mama mo ulit, she might be able to do something worse"

Wala na ko nagawa, umalis na kami ni Kokoy.

It's so hard to take it all in. May igugulo pa pala ang buhay ko?