Poetry : A King's Poverty

2 sided love

Out of every love song I played in my heart.

You where the best that played.

You brought tears I never thought I had.

You brought happiness I could never behold again.

You made my heart beat, from the freezing air around my lifeline.

Melting the only thing that protected me, I fell in love with you.

Something I wished would never happen.

Subtle laughs, hugs and lips against lips, I fell deeper and deeper to this feeling.

Drowning in emotions, loving you was the best thing that came into my sorrow full life.

I sacrificed so much to love and adore you, and you repaid me with another day with you heart.

I wish I could say I got over you, I wish I could stop this numbing feeling.

I wish I could say my heart has changed direction from this hellish course it took, but you already know the shambles of broken pieces that life was continually withered away from this fortress of sanity.

I wish I could say I had moved on and stopped loving you.

I wish I had more time to explain myself when I made a fool of myself, in front of everyone of peers.

I wish I could stop the tears that flow between brown eyes and lips that mutter this message you'll never read.

I hate to say but you've created my new mind set of woman and ruined it at the same time.

I hate to say that I developed a series of trust issues that cause me to lose someone I hold very dear.

I hate to say that I cant blame everything on you, because I dont.

I blame myself and only myself.

If my heart wasnt wasnt so weak from torment, this would be over and done with.

Three years.

You've been in my heart for 5 years.

And two years ago you chose him over me, and destroyed my ego and love for world.

Two years ago I turned into something new.

I'm glad you've changed me.

As I can finally say I've moved on and I can never think of you in the same light as my heart again.

Thank you for the lessons.

With all the love that should've been yours.

Proceed with love and curiosity Janessa.