carpe diem

attached to my abandonment

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I am porous and absorb
I can't help but sink my hooks in like a sinkhole swallowing
Claws deep like predator to prey devouring
Heavy when you confessed you had feelings for her again yes,
But you never wanted to leave me so what? Just to make a mess?
My hooks and claws are stuck like a kitten to the carpet
So I must be your pet and you must be my apartment
I must be sad and you must be getting drunk and seeing movies with friends
and laughing
and having a great time
While I'm stranded, yowling, swept under the rug we bought together
I've absorbed too much to pick myself back off the floor
I feel so goddamn heavy

-ch

I really am sad, you know? I'm in love with the past