The Commitment: Darker Than Envy

Dealin with the obvious

I've been in love with you more than once

I had my back against the wall been on my knuckles had a lost then lost it all friends i used to no no longer speakin anymo, they don't know me anymo, they sayin prayers don't we all unanswered prayers make you feel like go is not accepting calllls and i just wanna ball i just wanna ball wishin somtihing fall through.  

                                                                                                                          -Kevin gates Lost It All

Keiko pov

Moday 6:45

We got home yesterday and as usual Arabian was up cleaning at  2 am. I waited til she sat down to slip out the back door the cool Chicago air hit my face making me pull my jacket in tigher. I crossed the street near the gas station and the familiar sounds of cat calling by the prostitutes came back I grabbed my headphones and put them in my ear vibin out to Kevin Gates - lost it all

As i entered the gas station i looked around for some snacks i finally decided on some Beef jerky and a strawberry Fanta. I went up to the cashier and put them on the counter the Asian women behind the counter gave me a smug look. before ringing up the sacks 

"8.56" She said putting the stuff in a bag i pulled the money out my pocket to count it already knowing i'm short a dollar acting like if i recount it a dollar was gonna appear or something. Before i could Finish counting a voice started to speak. 

"Aye i'm paying for him" the dude was tall and had alot of tattoos. Arabian would never let me get that many she still mad about the ones i got now. He pulled out a huge wad of money and handed her a $20 bill 

"keep the change." The dude said as he grabbed the bag and handed it to me.

"yo you need a ride" He said

"Nah im good" i said 

"what stranger danger... Get in im not gonna do nothing to you" he said

 i hopped in the car and put my seat-belt on "I just live down the street" i said 

"Riverdal partments?" he asked

"yeah"  i responded

"you smoke?" he asked pulling out a blunt

"nah" i said turning it down

"suit yoself"he said as he lit up the blunt and put the car in reverse

the ride was silent as we got closer to the apartments 

"you can drop me off right here" i said

"still on some stranger danger huh..it's cool i get it" he said pulling over 3 buildings down.

"Nah but my sister gone trip if she see i snuck out again." i said

"again this must be a normal thing for you" he said

"you can say that" i said hopin out i waited til his car left before going into my apartment Arabian was still sleep on the couch so i tried not to make any noise with the bag inn my hand. i went to the bathroom and ate my snacks in peace. i put the trash in the bag and headed to the room to lay down.

"Keiko what are you still doing up" she asked

"i had to used the bathroom" i said

"you lying but imma let it slide this time" she said laying back down and wincing a little as she did so

 i the went to lay down.

6:30 am

i took a shower then went to the kitchen to eat breakfast.