I want to be mad she left me alone but I can't. I barely know her and likely scared her off, and she is just so damn cute. Eventually my parents give up and go back to the living room, but after about 10 minutes of me leaning against the door with my knees to my chest and my head between them, just sobbing; I hear a noise. I look up from my position to see a face in my window. If it were any other face I would likely scream, but instead I rush over to go open the window for her. She greats me by telling me "Told you I had a better idea" She smiles before bringing me into a giant hug. All I do is cry. I know I shouldn't have overreacted and I should have let them into my room, but knowing what the future holds sends shivers down my spine. I look up to see a sad expression appearing in Skylar's eyes. Thankfully it's so late that my parents have gone to sleep, but even if they were awake I wouldn't care. I don't think I can care about anyone except her right now. She eventually says "Now tell me what happened" while still holding me in her arms. I don't even know how to respond so I just sigh through my tears then say "It could've been worse. It was mostly me running away from them to avoid telling them why I was out so late. I saw the disappointment in their eyes from me acting so different. My mom said I stopped taking my medication because of how I was acting. I hide so much of who I am from them that I ended up hiding it from myself too. I can't wait to graduate and move out of here" she says nothing and continues to hold me in her arms. Then she says "Why don't you try and get some sleep?" I sigh and ask "Will you stay with me?" She nods before leading me over to my bed. Before I know it I am falling asleep into her arms as she strokes my head to calm down my sobs.
When I wake up she is gone and it's 7 in the morning. All I feel is the emptiness she left me with. I check my phone and see a text that reads "Good morning! I'll pick you up in 15, 20 minutes" I smile at it, just loving to see such a simple text from her. Then I see my phone ring. "Hey Tucker what's up?" I ask groggily. He asks "Are we still going today?" I reply "Yea, of course. Why?". He sternly says "Well I was wondering if you were going to keep jeopardizing us with that girl you met" I can hear the eye roll in his voice. "What the hell are you talking about?" All I can think to do is play dumb. But I know exactly what he is talking about. After a beat or two of silence he sighs before saying "You know what I am talking about". I hurry out an "I'll see you later" and hang up. I respond to Skylar's text by saying "I can't wait!" And I mean it. With her everything is real, I am myself and I mean what I say when I say it. In the process of building up walls I lost myself and in such a short time she broke every wall down and showed me myself. That's why I want to be with her. She made me realize that I could never be happy with a guy like I could with a girl. But despite these realizations I still want to follow through with the deal with Tucker, because even if it's the brutal truth I know I don't want to be gay. I can still be happy with her without anyone around me knowing. It's what's best for everyone around me, including myself. Nobody knows just how intense my parents can be, and I'm scared just thinking about them finding out my secrets.
As I am talking to myself in my head I put on my bathing suit and throw on some covering clothes before packing my bag and heading outside to see Skylar pulling into the driveway. My mom appears next to me in the doorway, in an effort to avoid her I rush to say "Bye, love you! See you later!!" And run into Skylar's car and quickly say "Drive" before my mom can say anything. She listens to me and laughs before saying "It's easy to run from your problems isn't it?" I chuckle a little before sighing and replying "Why do you think I do it?" She laughs. She begins a playlist on her phone that plays through Bluetooth in her car and she continues to drive. I just love the way her blue bikini shows through her white t-shirt. She is so beautiful and despite only meeting her yesterday it feels like I have known her forever.
"Why are you staring at me like that?" She says with a chuckle and a gleaming light in her eyes as she looks toward me before focusing back on the road. "Wha-what?" I stammer. She just laughs and says "You heard me". Once I regain my composure I playfully say "Just shut up and drive, you saw nothing" with a smile clear in my voice. I am mesmerized by her voice blending with the sounds of my favorite music, and hers too. I join her in singing, and we spend the whole drive this way. Eventually she pulls up into the beach parking lot and turns the car off. We climb out and grab our bags from the back, and take our covering clothes off, that's when she asks "Are you ready to embarrass yourself again?" she laughs, her beautiful laugh that just makes me know I want nothing else besides her. I start running to the beach and yell "Last one to the water is a rotten egg!!" She starts running after me and says "That's not fair!" I chuckle and say "Shouldn't have said that then!" I beat her to the water by a longshot and revel in the way the waves feel against my almost bare skin. She joins me later saying "I bet you're glad we got here early". I just nod before pulling her into a hug "thank you for being there for me" I smile against her chest. She sweetly responds "Thank you for letting me be". And we kiss again as the sun shines against the glassy water from the early hours of the morning, and nothing could be more perfect.
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Walking on a Tightrope
RomanceWhen Blake Thompson discovers she is a lesbian, she goes to her seventh grade "crush" for help. He is gay, but closeted, so she makes a deal with him; They date so nobody finds out either of them are gay. But what will become of this? Will they keep...
